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Dark Horseby Tami Hoag
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Life can change in a heartbeat. Ive always known that. Ive lived the truth of that statement literally from the day I was born. I sometimes see those moments coming, sense them, anticipate them. I see one coming now. Adrenaline runs through my bloodstream like rocket fuel. My heart pounds like a piston. Im ready to launch.
Ive been told to stay put, to wait, but I know thats not the right decision. If I go in first, if I go in now, Ive got the Golam brothers dead-bang.They think they know me.Their guard will be down. Ive worked this case three months. I know what Im doing. I know that Im right. I know the Golam brothers are already twitching. I know I want this bust and deserve it. I know Sikes is here for the show, to put a feather in his cap when the news vans arrive and make the public think they should vote for him in the next election for sheriff.
He stuck me on the side of the trailer and told me to wait. He doesnt know his ass. He doesnt even know the side door is the door the brothers use most. While Sikes and Ramirez are watching the front, the brothers are dumping their money into duffel bags and getting ready to bolt out the side. Billy Golams 4 X 4 is parked ten feet away, covered in mud. If they run, theyll take the truck, not the Corvette parked in front.The truck can go off-road.
Sikes is wasting precious time.The Golam brothers have two girls in the trailer with them.This could easily turn into a hostage situation. But if I go in now, while their guard is down . . .
Screw Sikes. Im going in before these twitches freak. Its my case. I know what Im doing. I hit the button on my radio. “This is stupid. Theyre going to break for the truck. Im going in.”
“Goddamnit, Estes--” Sikes.
I click the radio off and drop it into the weeds growing beside the trailer. Its my case. Its my bust. I know what Im doing.
I go to the side door and knock the way all the Golam brothers customers knock: two knocks, one knock, two knocks.“Hey, Billy, its El. I need some.”
Billy Golam jerks open the door, wild-eyed, high on his own home cooking--crystal meth. Hes breathing hard. Hes got a gun in his hand.
The front door explodes inward. One of the girls screams.
Buddy Golam shouts:“Cops!”
Billy Golam swings the .357 up in my face. I suck in my last breath.
He turns abruptly and fires. The sound is deafening and yet I hear someone shout:“Officer down!”
Billy Golam knocks me aside, bolts down the stairs and runs forthe truck.
I scramble to get my feet under me. I pull my weapon. I try to run before Im upright, stumble and hit the ground with one knee. Gunfire pops at the front of the trailer.The truck engine roars to life.
“Billy!” I scream, running for the truck, my only thought that I cant let him get away.
The truck lurches forward. I leap at it, grabbing the side mirror with my free hand. One foot hits the running board and skids out from under me. Golam hits the gas hard. Hes shooting out the passenger window, screaming:“Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!”
I try to bring my gun up as the truck hits the pavement and makes a hard left. Im like a rag doll clinging to the door.
Billy Golam screams like a madman. He looks right at me, mouth wide open, eyes bugging from his head. He cranks the wheel hard left again and kicks the door open as the truck squeals into a U-turn. Horns are honking, tires screeching. Im hanging in space. I cant hold on. I hit the pavement and darkness sweeps over me in the form of a three-quarter-ton truck.
Life can change in a heartbeat. In a heartbeat Im dead.
And then I opened my eyes and felt sick at the knowledge that I was still alive. This was the way I had greeted every day for the past two years. I had relived that memory so many times, it was like replaying a movie over and over and over. No part of it changed, not a word, not an image. I wouldnt allow it.
I lay in the bed and thought about slitting my wrists. Not in an abstract way. Specifically. I looked at my wrists in the soft lamplight--delicate, as fine-boned as the wing of a bird, skin as thin as tissue, blue-lined with veins--and thought about how I would do it. I looked at those thin blue lines and thought of them as lines of demarcation. Guidelines. Cut here. I pictured the needle-nose point of a boning knife. The lamplight would catch on the blade. Blood would rise to the surface in its wake as the blade skated along the vein. Red. My favorite color.
The image didnt frighten me. That truth frightened me most of all.
I looked at the clock. 4:38 A.M. Rise and whine. Id had my usual fitful four and a half hours of sleep. Trying for more was an exercise in futility.
Trembling, I forced my legs over the edge of the bed and got up, pulling a deep blue chenille throw around my shoulders. The fabric was soft, luxurious, warm. I made special note of the sensations. Youre always more intensely alive the closer you come to looking death in the face.
I wondered if Hector Ramirez had realized that the split second before I got him killed.
I wondered that every day.
I dropped the throw and went into the bathroom.
“Good morning, Elena. You look like shit.”
Too thin. Hair a wild black tangle. Eyes too large, too dark, as if there was nothing within to shine outward. The crux of my problem: lack of substance. There was---is--a vague asymmetry to my face, like a porcelain vase that has been broken, then painstakingly restored. The same vase it was before, and yet not the same. The same face I was born with, yet not the same. Slightly skewed and strangely expressionless. I was beautiful once.
I reached for a comb on the counter, knocked it to the floor, grabbed a brush instead. Start at the bottom, work upward. Like combing a horses tail. Work the knots out gently. But I had already tired of looking at myself. Anger and resentment bubbled up through me, and I tore the brush through the hair, shoving the snarls together and tangling the brush in the midst of the mess. I tried maybe forty-five seconds to extricate the thing, yanking at the brush, tearing at the hair above the snarl, not caring that I was pulling hairs out of my head by the roots. I swore aloud, swatted at my image in the mirror, swept the tumbler and soap dish off the counter in a tantrum, and they smashed on the tile floor. Then I jerked open a drawer in the vanity and pulled out a scissors.
Furious, shaking, breathing hard, I cut the brush free. It dropped to the floor with a mass of black hair wrapped around it. The pressure in my chest eased. Numbness trickled down through me like rain. Calm.
Without emotion, I proceeded to hack away at the rest of my mane, cutting it boy-short in ten minutes. The end result was ragged, with a finger-in-the-light-socket quality. Still, Id seen worse in Vogue.
I swept up the mess---the discarded hair, the broken glass--tossed it in the trash and walked out of the room.
Id worn my hair long as long as I could remember.
The "New York Times" bestselling author takes readers on "a great ride" ("People") in this spine-tingler about a killer with nothing to lose and a detective with everything at stake.
About the Author
Tami Hoag's novels have appeared regularly on national bestseller lists since the publication of her first book in 1988. She lives in Los Angeles.
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