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I Don't Want to Be Crazy

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ISBN13: 9780439805193
ISBN10: 0439805198
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A harrowing, remarkable poetry memoir about one girl's struggle with anxiety disorder.

This is a true story of growing up, breaking down, and coming to grips with a psychological disorder. When Samantha Schutz first left home for college, she was excited by the possibilities — freedom from parents, freedom from a boyfriend who was reckless with her affections, freedom from the person she was supposed to be. At first, she revelled in the independence. . . but as pressures increased, she began to suffer anxiety attacks that would leave her mentally shaken and physically incapacitated. Thus began a hard road of discovery and coping, powerfully rendered in this poetry memoir.

About the Author

Samantha Schutz is the author of the acclaimed memoir I Don't Want to Be Crazy, which was a New York Public Library Best Book for Teens and Voices of Youth Advocates Poetry Pick. You Are Not Here is her first novel. Samantha lives and works in New York City as a children's book editor. For more about her, please visit

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crowyhead, September 15, 2008 (view all comments by crowyhead)
When Samantha Schutz started college, she began to have frightening episodes for which she had no explanation. She would become fearful, particularly during class, have difficulty breathing, experience heart palpitations, and sometimes pass out. Every episode made things worse: fear of having an attack could trigger an attack. Eventually, Schutz learned that she was having panic attacks, and she suffered from panic disorder.

This is a frank, heartfelt memoir, told in free verse, that describes Schutz's college years and her struggle with anxiety and panic. I was dubious about the poetry format -- who wants to read someone else's poetry about their depression and anxiety? -- but it actually works really, really well. Schutz is able to capture moments and episodes in her life with wrenching clarity, and out of the short poems a complete portrait emerges. I think this is a particularly important book because there are so many memoirs of depression, and comparatively few that describe what it is like to live with unending anxiety. This was published as a YA book, but I would recommend it to just about anyone.
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brittani, July 30, 2007 (view all comments by brittani)
This book is so honest and really takes you into the mind of a young women struggling with Anxiety Disorder. Set completely in a poetry format, it has good flow and is an easy read. I really enjoyed this book alot.
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Poetry - General
Schutz, Samantha
Children's 12-Up - Poetry
Situations / Adolescence
Social Issues - Adolescence
Poetry : General
Social Issues - Depression & Mental Illness
Young women
Anxiety disorders
Children's poetry
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