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Wide Openby Deborah Coates
When Sergeant Hallie Michaels arrived in Rapid City, South Dakota, shed been traveling for twenty-four hours straight. She sat on the plane as it taxied to the gate and tried not to jump out of her skin, so ready to be up, to be moving, to put her head down and go. And Lord help anyone who got in her way.
She hadnt been able to reach her father or anyone else by phone since shed gotten the news, just contact with her commanding officer—Were sorry, your sisters dead. Heres ten days compassionate leave. Go home.
Three sharp bongs, and the seat belt light went out. The plane filled with the sound of seat belts snapping, people moving, overhead doors opening up. The woman in the seat next to Hallies was still fumbling with her buckle when Hallie stepped past her into the aisle. She felt raw and sharp edged as she walked off the plane and up the Jetway, like rusty barbed wire, like she would snap if someone twisted too hard.
Halfway down the long wide concourse, ready—she was—for South Dakota, for her sisters funeral for—
Eddie Serranos ghost floated directly in front of her, right in the middle of the concourse. She swiped a hand across her eyes, hoped it was an artifact of no sleep and too much coffee, though she knew that it wasnt.
He looked like hed just stepped out of parade formation—crisp fatigues, pants neatly tucked into his boots, cap stiff and creased and set on his head just exactly perfect. Better than hed ever looked when he was alive—except for being gray and misty and invisible to everyone but her.
She thought shed left him in Afghanistan.
She drew a deep breath. This was not happening. She was not seeing a dead soldier in the middle of the Rapid City airport. She wasnt. She squared her shoulders and walked past him like he wasnt there.
Approaching the end of the concourse, she paused and scanned the half-dozen people waiting just past security. She didnt see her father, had almost not expected to see him because—oh for so many reasons—because he wouldnt want to see her for the first time in a public place, because he had the ranch and funeral arrangements to take care of, because he hated the City, as he always referred to Rapid City, and airports, and people in the collective and, less often though sometimes more spectacularly, individually.
She spotted a woman with straight blond hair underneath a cowboy hat standing by the windows. Brett Fowker. Hallied known Brett since before kindergarten, since a community barbecue when they were five, where Brett had told Hallie how trucks worked and Hallie had taken them both for what turned out to be a very short ride. Brett was all right. Hallie could deal with that.
She started forward again and walked into a cold so intense, she thought it would stop her heart. It felt like dying all over again, like breath froze in her lungs. She slapped her hand against the nearest wall and concentrated on breathing, on catching her breath, on taking a breath.
She looked up, expecting Eddie.
But it was her sister. Dell.
Suddenly, Brett was there, a hand on her arm. “Are you all right?” she asked.
Hallie batted her hand away and leaned heavily against the wall, her breath sharp and quick. “Im fine!” Her voice sounded rough, even in her own ears.
Dell looked exactly as she had the last time Hallied seen her, wearing a dark tailored shirt, jeans with a hole in one knee, and cowboy boots. She was a ghost now and pretty much transparent, but Hallie figured the boots were battered and scuffed because shed always had a favorite pair that she wore everywhere. Even when shed dressed up sometimes, like no one would notice the boots if she wore a short black dress and dangly silver earrings. And no one did—because it was Dell and she could carry something like that off, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Hallie scrubbed a hand across her face. Goddamnit, Dell. She wasnt going to cry. She wasnt.
“Im sorry, Hallie. Im sorry.”
Brett said it over and over, like a mantra, her right hand a tight fist in Hallies sleeve. In sixth grade after Hallies mother died, she and Brett had made a no-hugging-ever pledge. Because no one had talked to Hallie that whole week, or looked her in the eye—just hugged her and handed her casserole dishes wrapped in aluminum foil.
Trust Brett to honor a pact made twelve years ago by eleven-year-olds.
“Brett,” Hallie said, “I—”
“Hallie!” Suddenly someone was hugging her. “Oh god, Hallie! Isnt it awful?”
Lorie Bixby grabbed her around the neck, hugged her so tight, Hallie thought she might choke. “It cant be right. I know its not right. Oh, Hallie…”
Hallie unwound Lories hands from her neck and raised an eyebrow at Brett, because Lorie hadnt been particular friends with Brett or Hallie back in school, though theyd done things together, because they lived close—for certain definitions of close—and were the same age. Hallie hadnt seen her since shed enlisted.
Brett raised her left shoulder in a half shrug, like she didnt know why Lorie was there either, though Hallie suspected it was because Brett hadnt wanted to come alone.
They were at the top of the stairs leading down to the luggage area and the parking lot. To Hallies left was a gift shop full of Mount Rushmore mugs and treasure maps to gold in the Black Hills. To her right was a café. It beckoned like a haven, like a brief respite from Afghanistan, from twenty-four hours with no sleep, from home.
But really, there was no respite. This was the new reality.
“Tell me,” Hallie said to Brett.
Brett hadnt changed one bit since Hallied last seen her, hadnt changed since shed graduated from high school, except for the look on her face, which was grim and dark. She had perfect straight blond hair—cowgirl hair, Hallie and Dell had called it because all the perfect cowgirls in perfect cowgirl calendars had hair like Bretts. She was wearing a bone-colored felt cowboy hat, a pearl-snap Western shirt, and Wranglers. “Tell you?” she said, like she had no idea what Hallie was talking about.
“What happened,” Hallie said, the words even and measured, because there were ghosts—Dells ghost, specifically—in the middle of the airport, and if she didnt hold on tight, she was going to explode.
Brett drew a breath, like a sigh. “You should talk to your daddy about it.”
“Look, no one believes it was really suicide.” Lorie leaned toward them like this was why shed come, to be with people, to talk about what had happened.
“What?” No one had mentioned suicide to her—accident, theyd said. Theres been a terrible accident.
“No one knows what happened yet,” Brett said cautiously, giving Lorie a long look.
“Tell me,” Hallie said, the words like forged nails, iron hard and sharp enough to draw blood.
Brett didnt look at Hallie, her face obscured by the shadow of her hat. “They say,” she began, like it had all happened somewhere far away to people who werent them. “She was out driving over near Seven Mile Creek that night. Or the morning. I dont know.” Like that was the worst thing—and for Brett, maybe it was—that she didnt have all the particulars, the whys and wherefores. “She wracked her car up on a tree. There was no one else around. Theyre saying suicide. But I dont— No one believes that,” she added quickly. “They dont.” As if to convince herself.
“Dell did not commit suicide,” Hallie said.
She walked away. This was not a discussion.
She didnt look to see if Brett and Lorie were behind her until she was halfway to the luggage carousel.
Five minutes later, they were crammed into Bretts gray Honda sedan. Hallie felt cramped and small sitting in the passenger seat, crushed under the low roof. Lorie sat in the back, an occasional sniff the only mark of her presence.
Brett turned the key in the ignition, the starter grinding before it caught. Hallie felt cold emanating from Eddies and Dells ghosts drifting behind her in the backseat. Though Lorie didnt act as if she could feel them at all.
“She called me,” Brett said as she pulled out of the parking lot.
“What?” Because Dell and Brett hadnt been friends.
“Yeah, right out of the blue,” Brett said.
“Monday morning. That morning.” Brett swallowed, then continued. “She wanted me to skip classes—Im working on a masters in psychology, you know—well, you dont know, I guess.” It didnt surprise Hallie. Brett had always wanted to know how things worked, even people. Shed been a steady B student in high school, but she worked until she knew what she wanted to know or got where she wanted to get.
“Im thinking about University of Chicago for—” Brett stopped, cleared her throat, and continued. “She said she wanted to celebrate.”
“And she called you?”
“Shit, I dont know, Hallie,” Brett said. “She called, said she wanted to celebrate. Suggested horseback riding up along, well, up along Seven Mile Creek. It was weird.”
“Maybe she didnt have anyone to ride with anymore.”
“She didnt have a horse.”
“What?” Because Dell had always been about horses.
“Shed been gone,” Brett said, like they didnt have horses outside western South Dakota.
“Did you go?”
Brett was silent while she maneuvered through the sparse late-morning traffic and onto the interstate, headed east. They had an hour, hour and a half depending, to get to Taylor County and the ranch. Or to the funeral home in town. Hallie wasnt looking forward to either one.
“She canceled at the last minute,” Brett finally said. “Id already brought the horses up, was getting ready to load them in the trailer when she called. She said shed been mistaken.”
“Yeah … I hadnt seen her but one night at the Bob since shed been home. She said she wanted to celebrate, I dont know, something. And then she canceled.”
Hallies hand rapped against the underside of her knee until she realized she was doing it and made herself stop. “Did she say anything?”
“When she canceled?” Brett shook her head. “She just said something came up. But thats where they found her, Hallie. Up on the Seven Mile.”
Hallie didnt want to be riding in this car, didnt want to be listening to any of this. She wanted to move, to … shoot something. Because Dell hadnt killed herself. She hadnt. If no one else would say it, Hallie would.
Copyright © 2012 by Deborah Coates
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