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Bark If You Love Me: A Woman-Meets-Dog Story (Harvest Book)by Louise Bernikow
On the sunny brink of Memorial Day weekend, I was out for an afternoon run in Riverside Park with nothing much on my calendar for the days ahead and a lot of clutter in my mind. Id stretched my cramping legs and darted across the Drive, crammed bumper-to-bumper with cars full of people escaping the city. My idea of a holiday was staying home, sleeping, sorting the clutter. I needed a breather.
The stone steps going down into the park reeked of canine and human piss. I exhaled at the bottom and started along the pavement, past an iron-fenced dog run with noisy nattering animals racing around, kicking up dust. On the flattened dirt path that common use had made a jogging trail, a woman of Olympian speed and musculature passed me going in the other direction, then a man and woman moving at a shuffle, hooked together to a Walkman.
The gears meshed and I finally got a stride, until a big shaggy dog chasing a yelping smaller one raced across the path, right at my feet, and almost tripped me.
Get those dogs on a leash,” I shouted irritably over my shoulder in the general direction of two people standing and talking nearby, leashes dangling from their hands instead of attached to their canines.
I recovered my balance and picked up speed, dodging a Frisbee. Sweat broke through under my arms and across my breastbone.
No more than half a mile along, a police car was stopped along the roadway. People gathered around it. This generally meant a body had been found in the park or, more rarely, a jogger hurt. Since I cant pass a hubbub without wanting to see what its about, I stopped, took a few deep breaths, and walked over.
The cops had their windows rolled down. On the drivers side, a woman jiggled a baby in a three-wheeled canvas contraption she had been running with. Around her were several people in business clothes, a man holding two cocker spaniels on leashes, a young Asian woman with a huge long-haired dog lying like a rug at her feet, and another young woman in shorts and a Barnard College T-shirt.
I asked what was going on.
The police had a dog, the Barnard student said, whod been found beaten, starving, tied to a tree. He needed a home. Oh, please, I thought, with all the trouble in this city, the police are out saving dogs?
We cant have pets in the dorms,” the young woman was saying, or Id take it.” She looked tragic. Its only a dog, I thought. Get a grip. I looked over her shoulder, into the car.
He was curled like a cat, a dark brown ball with large amber eyes, huddled on the back seat. The man with the cocker spaniels was telling the cops he wanted the dog, but didnt think his girlfriend would tolerate another one. Oh, dont be such a wuss, I thought, but the mans voice was fading away, like background noise in a movie scene. The woman, baby, and contraption jogged off.
The dog looked back at me. A boxers face, I thought, from meager experience. Flat, dark nose. Those eyes. He didnt move, just looked me over, wearily, with some curiosity. He was panting and a long pink tongue spilled from his dark, parted lips.
I WAS NOT A PERSON well acquainted with dogs or animals of any kind. No childhood memories of bounding with a tail-wagging pup over hill and dale or in the froth of the oceans spray, no grandmas house where Lassie barked with glee at the sight of me, no beloved National Velvet colt hidden away in my heart. Politically, it made sense to save the whales, hug trees, and create humane conditions in which mares urine could be collected for transformation into hormones for menopausal women, but I never went to the barricades over animal rights issues. Lets worry about people first, I always said. And did.
On the Bronx sidewalks of my youth and in the large apartment houses, we were not canine-friendly. We were not, in fact, nature-friendly. Nature” was laced with dangers, like spiders, wasps, and bees. Cats gave us the willies. Dogs were more scary and dirty to boot. They jumped up on you out of nowhere. They bit. They carried disease and that dreaded stuff called allergens. My mother, whose ostensible job was to guard her pups against the worlds dangers, always said I was allergic to trees, grass, and animals. Who was I, who had suffered asthmatic terrors far too often in my young years, to disagree?
In this, as in most matters, my fearful mother generalized from a small truth. Life so far had proven her only partially right. Most of the perils described to me in my childhood had never materialized. I hadnt picked up diseases from toilet seats in public bathrooms nor been found dead in the street after a car accident, wearing dirty underwear. Christians hadnt betrayed me. Men hadnt used me. Id actually outgrown childhood problems like asthma and poor eyesight and had come to believe, like most Americans, that Id left all limitations behind.
But I hadnt. In Los Angeles once, hobnobbing with movie people and jockeying for a deal, Id stayed near the beach with an old friend and his two cats. The cats hadnt registered until I woke in the night, gasping. I wheezed my way out of the house, walked near the shore, inhaling intensely. Although reason said buy medicine, stay elsewhere, make the deal, I went, instead, to the airport. The ticket change was costly, but the plane was mercifully free of cat. The deal fell through.
Yet for a week or two, some summers, while my friends Alyosha and Lisa left the Berkeley hills to travel, I watched over their house and dog. Ariel, a female black and white Portuguese water spaniel, didnt make me sneeze, gasp, itch, or flee. I drove around with hersticking her nose out the cars back window. We climbed the Indian rocks and stared out at San Francisco Bay. I ran the track off The Alameda with her on a leash, perplexed about going in circles. One night, she woke me, making a racket, thumping her tail on the floor. I, who had never been able to give orders to anyone, told her firmly to stop. In the California morning, I discovered, listening to the radio, that Ariels tail thumping had been an alert. A minor earthquake had come in the night.
But Ariel belonged to California and my relationship with her was a Pacific Coastinduced aberration, like eating sprouts or saying freeway. At heart, I was a New Yorker, a clotheshorse, a snob, a feminist intellectual, and a world adventurer, happier on banquettes in cafés in the great capitals of the world than in the aisles of the Home Depot. I rented places to live and had no desire to own real estate because I dreaded being anchored. I felt compelled to be ready, at all times, to leave for Paris on a moments notice. I was not interested in collaborating or camping, baking bread or raising babies.
Thats who I was or thought I was.
Then, standing in Riverside Park in Manhattan, sweating beside a police car, I did one of the strangest things Ive ever done: I took the little brown dog home.
I cant say why. I looked into his eyes and I took him home, just that. I cant even quite say how. I have no memory of saying yes or of being asked anything about myself or my circumstances by the police. I cant conjure an image of the car door opening, of the dog scampering out or myself lifting him. I dont remember good-byes” and certainly not good lucks.”
The dog was on his legs, a metal-studded dark leather collar around his neck attached to a chain with a blue cloth handle for a leash. He walked along beside me, looking small, brown, and scared, but agreeable. A posse accompanied us through the park—the Barnard student; the wimpy man with his spaniels; and an opera singer named Lisa who lives in my building and has a small dog named Baxter, both of whom had somehow joined us along the way.
There are many things I know. I can recite the prologue to The Canterbury Tales in Middle English, build bookcases with my own hands, change the motor oil in a car, and tell you why the ERA failed. I also do not lack for daring. But the little brown thing trotting beside me, occasionally stealing a look up, was daunting and a little scary. Was he a killer? A lunatic? Rabid? About to expire?
I had no idea how he worked. What did he eat and how often? Where would he sleep and how much? While Ariel had a yard in Berkeley to dash out to, this characters yard would be four flights down and three blocks away. How was that supposed to work?
© 2000 by Louise Bernikow
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