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The Secret Life of Emily Dickinson

Emily Dickinson has haunted my life — her poems, her persona, all the tales about her solitude. Ever since I discovered her in the seventh grade, I've had a crush on that spinster in whiteEver since I discovered her in the seventh grade, I've had a crush on that spinster in white, who had such a heroic and startling inner landscape of her own. "To shut one's eyes is Travel," she wrote, and I traveled with her, across volcanoes, mountain villages, treacherous streams, and unfamiliar archipelagos that were suddenly familiar when caught in the prism of her own merciless eye.

There's that one daguerreotype of her, taken when she was sixteen or so, with a ribbon around her long swanlike neck as she peruses us, her potential readers. She looks out at us with her unadorned face, as simple and plain as a handkerchief, and I felt riveted to her and the rides she liked to take toward her own sense of Immortality. It wasn't a place of comfort or rest. It was as windblown as an orchard in February, ripe with roots and a coverlet of moss. I always imagined it as the very secret garden of a writer's mind.

Sometimes she shared that garden with us, sometimes not. The old maid of Amherst was implacable in her white dress. Many years later I arrived like a pilgrim in Amherst and visited Emily's room, which was as unadorned as the face in the daguerreotype. I happened to be alone in that part of the Dickinson Homestead, now a museum devoted to Emily. I wasn't burdened by any tour guide or gaggle of Dickinson devotees. I could run my hand along the sides of her sleigh bed, stare at the replica of her tiny desk and wonder at the words she might have scratched while she looked across the road at her father's fields. It was the curious and quiet electricity of her room that gave
me the courage to write a novel about her, in the quicksilver of her voice.

I danced in Emily's room like some little devil who was also one of her devotees. Dickinson believed in devils, and so did I. They must have accompanied her on her own ride to eternity. I wish I had been there with her. And in my novel I tried to imagine what that trip must have been like.

Some readers may be disturbed that I wrote The Secret Life of Emily Dickinson in Emily's own voice. I wasn't trying to steal her thunder or her music. I simply wanted to imagine my way into the head and heart of Emily Dickinson. I decided to start the novel at Mount Holyoke Female Seminary, even though many scholars and critics of her work do not feel that the time she spent there — seven or eight months in 1848 and 1849 — was particularly important to her. I disagree. Even though she rarely mentioned Mount Holyoke in her later letters, and was homesick from the minute she arrived to the minute she left, I still feel that the seminary shaped her in several subterranean ways. It gave her a sense of the Devil, and allowed Emily to hurl off the straitjacket of established religion.

Emily was someone "without Hope," who couldn't declare her faith in the Lord.Emily was someone "without Hope," who couldn't declare her faith in the Lord. Her religion was much more private, much more particular.

Slowly, slowly, she turned towards the gods and devils of creation. Such gods and devils empowered her whenever she was scrunched over her writing desk in Amherst. She suffered a great deal and had to hide her own fierce intelligence, since women in a nineteenth century American village weren't supposed to think for themselves. And thus she had a dual life — obedient daughter, loving sister, and later a loving aunt, and all the while she smoldered inwardly and was a demon at her desk.

That's one of the reasons why each new generation of readers responds to her poetry in such a visceral way. These scrawls on scraps of paper — she often wrote on the backs of envelopes and at the bottom of old recipes — were a matter of life and death. We can feel her trembling in the words themselves. Her celebrated use of the dash wasn't some fanciful artifact. It was a weapon, as Emily moved from image to image without giving us a chance to breathe. Her words attack us, bite our heads off, even while they soothe and delight. There has never been another poet like her, male or female.

Sometimes I feel that her one great advantage was that she seemed to inhabit both sexes, depending on her mood and her will. She could be male and female, and was often both in the same poem. Perhaps only a recluse like Emily could have had the daring to do so. She's virile and weak, and her constant shift in tone gives us a sense of vertigo as we move from line to line, poem to poem.

She didn't believe in titles; perhaps titles were too imperial, too complete, and might embalm a poem. She wanted to ravage us, just as she ravaged herself in the writing. She was both a penitent and a pixie, forever variable, hard to hold in one place. Just when we feel that we've grasped her mood, and that we know Emily, she sweeps us into another cove, and disenchants us even while she enchants.

That's why we can always go back to her poems; there is no one final reading or assessment of her as a poet. She is larger, and more mercurial, than we will ever be. And whenever I visit Amherst and steal into her room, I begin to smile with some kind of secret complicity. It's not that I know her any better after writing a novel through her eyes, with all her little adventures — her romps with her beloved dog Carlo, her days and nights in Cambridge when she was half blind, her "love affair" with one of her dead father's friends. It's simply that I feel an endless delight in having been in her presence, at least for a little while.

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Jerome Charyn has been teaching film for the past fourteen years at the American University of Paris. His novel The Green Lantern was a finalist for the PEN/Faulkner Award and he has also received the Rosenthal Award from the American Academy of Arts and Letters.

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2 Responses to "The Secret Life of Emily Dickinson"

    Pamala May 16th, 2010 at 12:59 pm

    Another feast from the dipped pen and shining brilliance of Mr. Charyn. Again and again he allows us to travel with Emily's soul, her spirit- rush through her frustration, impatience, discovery, and wonder. We become a witness to all she feels, sees and creates. We feel the edge of the desk as surely as we feel the edge of her words. She indeed keeps us spinning- trying to be certain who she is- never sure, grasping suddenly at her as if we were certain. He has brought the chilly cliff of her and the warm flower sun of her. We can stand with her and be amazed after decades. How can a gifted writer (like Mr. Charyn)) be judged for stepping lovingly, passionately into the 'mind and heart' of another writer (or character) to bring her to life again that we may know her and share her!!?! It is indeed "an endless delight" Mr. Charyn as brought us with Emily- an unending one- for as much as we now see,hear and know her- she remains a secret, half locked in a still, shadowy room, ever looking out to her garden pen in hand- uncertain she should welcome us. I can not forget her now. She has left words on my soul and a whisper in gardens of my own!

    Lenore September 3rd, 2011 at 6:23 am

    So glad you re-posted this. I invite all readers to our Facebook community dedicated to Emily Dickinson in the 21st Century - facebook: http://on.fb.me/EmilyFacebook

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