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A raw, poignant, and often hilarious look inside the troubled life and mind of an American comic icon
From his harrowing childhood filled with physical and emotional abuse at the hands of his parents, to a lifetime of alcoholism and self-mutilation, psychiatric hospitalizations, and misdiagnoses, to the peak of fame and success as the longest-tenured cast member of Saturday Night Live, Darrell Hammond delves into the darkest corners of his life, both in front of and behind the camera, with brutal honesty and fierce comic wit. On the back of his hilarious dead-on impressions of Bill Clinton, Dick Cheney, Chris Matthews, and a hundred other prominent figures, Hammond was invited into the inner sanctums of the country's political leaders, including three presidents, all the while suffering debilitating and largely undiagnosed mental anguish that resulted in horrifying flashbacks, shocking benders, a hair-raising stint in a Bahamian jail, and ultimately a dark night in a Harlem crack house. His long fight for sobriety, filled with heartbreaking relapses, was propelled by a desire to do right by his young daughter and to set the record straight about how he fell so low while achieving such heights. Throughout, Hammond lays bare the real inner workings of an iconic television show.
"Comedian and former Saturday Night Live regular Hammond gained fame in the 90s for his impersonation of Bill Clinton, among others. Although it includes the expected visit to rehab, Hammond's moving memoir contains surprising detours, such as his revelations about cutting himself. The book starts off with a bang: on the first page, Hammond is in rehab after getting drunk and trying to cut his arm off with a kitchen knife. Hammond's breezy style and facile storytelling will keep readers entertained even while reading about his struggle with alcoholism, including the time he attended Clinton's second inauguration, confronted an in-room display of Grand Marnier, and ended up on the floor of the National Airport still in his tuxedo. Hammond's depiction of his Florida childhood shows how the abuse dealt by his parents, especially his mother, resulted in a life of dysfunction, yet also gave him his profession-he learned to do voices as protection from his mother. This funny man's serious life can be an inspiration to all.
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“Hammonds moving memoir contains surprising detours. . . . [His] breezy style and facile storytelling will keep readers entertained even while reading about his struggle with alcoholism. . . . This funny mans serious life can be an inspiration to all.” Publishers Weekly (Starred Review)
Tina Feys Bossypantsmeets David Carrs The Night of the Gun in Darrell Hammondsgroundbreaking memoir, God, If Youre Not Up There, Im F*cked—a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of anAmerican comic genius. By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes readersfrom the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the showslongest-tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into thetwisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Minglingbehind-the-scenes stories from televisions best-loved comedy series with adark look inside a world-class funnyman, God If Youre Not Up There,Im F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyonewho shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know howan artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.
About the Author
Darrell Hammond is an award-winning actor and comedian who was a Saturday Night Live cast member for a record-setting fourteen years. He has also appeared on Broadway and in the dramatic television series Damages and Law & Order: Criminal Intent. He recently received critical acclaim for his starring role in the one-man play Tru. He lives in New York City