First Things First
Kraop was the sound that I heard. Heard it twice--kraop, kraop--one time each for my two fingers that got broke. I heard my bones pop before I felt anything, gunshot-loud they echoed in my ears. Maybe that was the tip-off what'd just happened was going to hurt like hell.
Wrong.
It hurt so bad, I didn't feel a thing.
The hands that held me, Ty's hands--big like bear claws, strong like presses--let me go. I twisted to the ground, slow, the way a snowman melts. Couldn't help from going down. Something about having body parts mangled that messes with your lucidity. I gave that a lot of thought as I lay on the hard, dirty pavement that felt feather bed-comfy to my fucked-up senses. If I slept a million years in this outdoor bedroom I couldn't care less.
"Sorry, Jeffty," Ty said from somewhere above me. He meant it, too. I could hear it in his voice. It almost made me feel guilty. It almost made me feel like even though he'd just busted my fingers, somehow I was the bad guy.
All Dumas had to add to things was: "Let's see if we can't get me my money, do you know, Jeffty?"
I heard the two of them walk away. I heard them get in their Benz and drive off, the sound seemed to drift from the other side of the planet.
I was alone. On the ground. In an alley. I thought about getting up, but the growing throb in my swelling fingers told me otherwise. It said I should relax, take a rest, pass out for a while. Why not? I didn't have any plans; nowhere to go except a little further down in life than I already was, and there was plenty of time for that. I got cozy with the dirt and rubbish, and remained undisturbed. People passed by the lip of the alley, but they paid me no mind. Just another black man stretched out near some garbage cans. So what?
So nothing.
So life went on around me. I took my fingers' advice and went to sleep.
Later, I came to. The same throbbing in my fingers that'd passed me out woke me up. Except sometime during my minicoma, the dull pain had gone through a metamorphosis into full agony. Agony that instructed me in the strongest possible terms to get to a hospital.
Hospital. That's what I'd thought. Free clinic is what I'd meant.
I made the long climb to my feet, the five-thousand-mile journey to my car, and drove. I did my best not to look at the fingers, but you got broken fingers, how can you not look at them? They were bloated and a deep black-purple. They twisted up and back away from the other fingers of my hand like decrepit branches on a tree that refused to grow right. It only took a second or two of staring at them before I started choking on my own vomit.
Fairfax. The free clinic. A nurse--a woman in a nurse's uniform--at the receiving window, neatly tucked away behind bulletproof glass.
"Here." She shoved a clipboard with a sheet of paper attached through a slot in the window. Her tone told me she was annoyed, like me showing up had interrupted whatever she'd been doing that was far more important than helping injured people. "Fill this out and bring it back when you're done."
The woman in the nurse's uniform spoke without looking up. She spoke as if she said the same thing every sixty seconds whether there was someone there to hear her or not.
I took a seat and went to work on the forms. There was a gunshot victim, a stabbing, and some guy with hedge clippers in his thigh ahead of me. Around this part of LA, a lousy twisted finger or two isn't much as emergencies go. I guess they figured trying to do paperwork with my busted appendages would just about eat up enough time for them to get to me.
It didn't.
I sat for I don't know how long, my arm raised, my fingers looking like I was trying to point up and around a corner at the same time, waiting. Just like Gunshot Guy and Hedge Clippers Guy kept waiting.
What health care crisis?
I took the opportunity to pass out some more. When I came awake again there was a nurse--another woman in a nurse's uniform--yelling at me for not finishing my forms and pushing me toward an examining table. As I walked, the world started to do funny things. It juked and jived and turned to soft matter under my feet. I thought, Rather than deal with the yelling woman and the liquefying ground, it might be better if I pass out for a while more. It was getting so I could do it on cue. There was a circus job waiting for me somewhere. Jeffty, the one-trick wonder. See him get roughed up. See him go down like a prom queen. Then witness the marvel of him going lights-out at the first hint of pain or bother.
A crazy dreamlike big top floated through my fuzzy mind. It was full of scary clowns, and lion tamers with nothing to do, and a guy sporting a turban.
Only . . . the guy with the turban wasn't part of the dream. The guy with the turban, as my eyes fluttered open, was standing over me. As I got my wits back, I figured Turban Guy, skinny and greasy-looking, must have been a doctor. At least, maybe he was a doctor in the country he came from which was probably the same as being an auto mechanic in the civilized nation that I called home. This one looked like he should be selling fruit from a freeway off-ramp as much as operating on people.
"It is bad. It is very bad," he said. I think he said. His command of English was about that of someone who had mastered it just that morning. "You should have had this looked at immediately," he scolded. "Why did you not have this looked at immediately?"
Sure. It was all my fault. Whatever. I didn't say anything to that. I just let Turban Guy finish setting my fingers with splints and medical tape. When he was done hacking around with my hand, he wrote out a prescription for painkillers, codeine, he wanted me to go have filled, as if I had the money to fill it. Twice as strong as aspirin at five times the cost. Nice racket.
But don't think I wouldn't find a way to come up with the cash. Codeine ain't heroin, but it'll get you high, and there's always a junkie out there looking for some kind of a fix. I could turn around and sell that shit on the street for a healthy profit.
What about my fingers?
What about them?
I could live with the hurt. Cash is my painkiller.
From the Hardcover edition.