Synopses & Reviews
Chapter OneSilent Suffering
"I have a dreamlike image of waiting, terrified, outside my mother's bathroom door knowing only that she is sitting on the toilet and bleeding. I think she is calling to me to get her some sanitary napkins and I can't find them and she is panicky and I don't know what is happening.
"Many years later, a married college friend of mine had a miscarriage. I remember going to visit her not long after it happened and being surprised by how upset she was. Her tears were incomprehensible to me. I had spent most of my adult life being convinced that I could become pregnant in a heartbeat, and I was trying conscientiously to avoid that dreaded state. Though I muttered some sympathetic words to her, secretly I condemned her for her exaggerated reaction. My god, she was behaving as though someone close to her had died!
Fifteen years after my friend had her miscarriage I was sitting in a class,having recently found out that I was pregnant with my second, badly wanted child. Suddenly, I felt a rush of warm blood come gushing out of me. With it came the long-buried terror surrounding my mother's miscarriage, but I was convinced that if I could hold on tightly enough I could save the baby we had been trying more than two years to conceive."
"Every few hours I had been checking myself for signs of blood: whether it was brown or red, how much there was of it. My doctor had been monitoring my hormone levels with sensitive blood tests every few days too. If the numbers didn't go up quickly enough I was in for either a miscarriage or an ectopic pregnancy. Nothing was definitive until I saw the blood: bright red and flowing freely. I tried to stop it up with toilet paper. I tried to sit very, very still. I tried to cross my legs and hold it in. But still it came. I could feel it flowing out of me, my lifeblood, my baby.
On the way to the hospital I felt as though I were observing this scene from a distance, as if it were happening to someone else, a long time ago."
These are the echoes of ancient losses, pebbles tossed carelessly into the pond, reverberating with past and future significance. There is hardly a life untouched by a pregnancy loss, and yet each one seems so unknowable and unknown. We seem to have no words to name our experiences of these losses. Or perhaps we turn away in an attempt to avoid a confrontation with one of life's darkest and cruelest twists, a life ended before it begins.
These are the facts: Every year 890,000 of the 6.5 million pregnancies in the United States end in some form of miscarriage or stillbirth and another 1.5 million end in abortion. Inthe space of one short year almost 2.5 million people are affected by pregnancy losses of one kind or another.
It is hard to imagine a statistic related to life and death that is more prevalent, yet at the same time less widely known. A woman in her early forties who had three miscarriages in a little over two years puts it this way:
"I had never really realized how many miscarriages there were until I had one. That's when people would "come out" about it, and talk about their own miscarriages. Like they were coming out of the closet! But when it happened the first time I was really unprepared ... it made me feel like there was something really wrong with me because I had never heard of anybody having them."
How is it that we have not heard? That we do not know? Another woman describes her lack of preparation for the emotional impact of her abortion:
"I wasn't prepared for the crisis I went through when I got pregnant accidentally after my fourth child. I grew up in the sixties. I had always thought about abortions as being a pretty straightforward medical procedure. I was-and still am-strongly in favor of a parent's right to choose whether to bear a child. But I wasn't at all prepared for my reaction when I was faced with that choice. I knew that for a lot of reasons we couldn't have another child but I couldn't bring myself to make that appointment. I postponed it for a really long time, until it was almost too late. I did finally go through with..."
Synopsis
This comforting and healing book is a must--not only for women who have at one time experienced pregnancy loss but also for their parents, sisters, daughters, brothers, and friends. Kim Kluger-Bell's extensive fieldwork as a therapist specializing in the psychodynamics of reproductive crises strips away the shrouds of silence surrounding pregnancy losses and abortions, giving new voice to these "unspeakable losses."
Filled with in-depth stories of those who have experienced losses and solid, practical advice with mourning rituals and services, Unspeakable Losses is a necessary companion to all those who have experienced pregnancy loss and those who care about them.This soothing book is a must--not simply for women who have experienced pregnancy loss, but also for their partners and those who care about them. Kim Kluger-Bell, a therapist specializing in the psychodynamics of losing a child before birth--whether to abortion, miscarriage, or other loss--strips away the shrouds of silence surrounding this unique pain. She gives new voice to these "unspeakable losses," in a culture that has rendered its discussion taboo.
Combining in-depth stories with solid, practical advice, Unspeakable Losses articulates the myriad emotional stages that arise from pregnancy loss and validates what can otherwise be a terribly lonely experience. This book is a vital companion for women and men in comprehending--and recovering from--their own experience with reproductive crisis.This soothing book is a must--not simply for women who have experienced pregnancy loss, but also for their partners and those who care about them. Kim Kluger-Bell, a therapist specializing in the psychodynamics of losing a child before birth--whether to abortion, miscarriage, or other loss--strips away the shrouds of silence surrounding this unique pain. She gives new voice to these "unspeakable losses," in a culture that has rendered its discussion taboo.
Combining in-depth stories with solid, practical advice, Unspeakable Losses articulates the myriad emotional stages that arise from pregnancy loss and validates what can otherwise be a terribly lonely experience. This book is a vital companion for women and men in comprehending--and recovering from--their own experience with reproductive crisis.
Synopsis
This soothing book is a must -- not simply for women who have experienced pregnancy loss, but also for their partners and those who care about them. Kim Kluger-Bell, a therapist specializing in the psychodynamics of losing a child before birth -- whether to abortion, miscarriage, or other loss -- strips away the shrouds of silence surrounding this unique pain. She gives new voice to these "unspeakable losses", in a culture that has rendered its discussion taboo.
Combining in-depth stories with solid, practical advice, Unspeakable Losses articulates the myriad emotional stages that arise from pregnancy loss and validates what can otherwise be a terribly lonely experience. This book is a vital companion for women and men in comprehending -- and recovering from -- their own experience with reproductive crisis.
Description
Includes bibliographical references (p. [161]-[171]).
About the Author
Kim Kluger-Bell is a psychotherapist and marriage and family therapist in private practice in Berkeley, California. She specializes in helping individuals and couples heal from such reproductive crises as infertility, pregnancy loss, and abortion. She lives in Albany, California, with her husband and son.