Synopses & Reviews
From the commentator for National Public Radio and author of Telling comes a book that is a memoir of breathtaking candor, an affecting yet rigorously unsentimental story of the extraordinary, passion between a straight woman and a gay man.
When Marion Winik fell in love with Tony Heubach during a wild Mardi Gras in New Orleans, her friends shook their heads. But Marion and Tony's impossible love turned out to be true enough to produce a marriage and two beautiful sons -- and to weather drug addiction, sexual betrayal, and the AIDS that would kill Tony at the age of thirty-seven. Beautifully written, by turns hilarious and heartbreaking, First Comes Love is a miraculous account of love, loss, and survival that redefines not only what it means to be a family but what it means to be in love.
From National Public Radio commentator Marion Winik, author of Telling, comes a memoir of breathtaking candor--an affecting yet rigorously unsentimental story of the extraordinary passion between a straight woman and a gay man. "Decidedly unfaint-hearted."--The New York Times Book Review.
A heartbreaking and hilarious memoir by longtime All Things Considered commentator and author of The Glen Rock Book of the Dead charts the trajectory of a marriage so impossible that it became inevitable.
Gritty, funny, moving, horrific, outrageous--and, above all, fearlessly honest.... ultimately a joyous story. --Newsday
When Marion Winik fell in love with Tony Heubach during a wild Mardi Gras in New Orleans, her friends shook their heads. For starters, she was straight and he was gay. But Marion and Tony's impossible love turned out to be true enough to produce a marriage and two beautiful sons, true enough to weather drug addiction, sexual betrayal, and the AIDS that would kill Tony at the age of thirty-seven, twelve years after they met.
About the Author
Marion Winik is heard regularly on National Public Radio's "All Things Considered." She was the recipient of a 1993 National Endowment for the Arts Fellowship in Creative Nonfiction and has been voted Favorite Local Writer by the readers of the Austin Chronicle for four consecutive years. First Comes Love won the Violet Crown Award for Best Book by an Austen Writer, 1996, from the Austen Writer's League. The author of Telling, she lives in Austen, Texas, with her two sons.
Reading Group Guide
1. Marion Winik has chosen a quotation from Giacomo Casanova to begin her narrative. How does this quotation apply to her life, and to Tony's?
2. Why do you think Marion was so strongly attracted to Tony, knowing as she did from the first that he was gay? How can you explain their mutual need for one another? How does Marion explain it? Do you find her explanation convincing?
3. "Miz Rain say value. Values determine how we live much as money do. I say Miz Rain stupid there. All I can think she don't know to have NOTHIN'"[p. 66]. Which opinion do you agree with, or is there something to be said for both? What answer, if any, does the novel offer?
4. Leaving New Orleans after meeting Tony, Marion says, "Lines from love poems by Frank O'Hara and Allen Ginsberg were in my head, and that's who I wanted to be--that passionate outlaw poet with his beautiful taboo love" [p. 32]. Is Marion a romantic? Does her self-perception change during the course of the memoir? Does she still see her life as romance at the end?
5. Tony decides to take Marion's last name, and Marion says, "I. . .loved what it said about us. I was the man of the family. Tony was mine" [p. 95]. What does she mean by saying she's the "man of the family?" What sexual stereotypes do Marion and Tony transgress? What role does each one play within the family?
6. "Nobody but us thought trying to have a baby was such a good idea" [p. 99]. Do you think it was a good idea?
7. How can you explain Tony's violence toward Marion: is it because his own father abused his mother? Because of drugs or instability? Because of insoluble elements in their relationship?
8. "I was determined to stay with him no matter what. That was my commitment" [p. 183]. Do you think that Marion was right to stay with Tony as long as she did? Was his presence, his violence, and his dependence on drugs harmful to the children? What might you have done in her position?
9. After Tony and Marion argue over the possibility of the lethal injection, Marion weeps, saying to herself, "He does not wish me well. He does not wish me well" [p. 243]. Later, she says, "Tony always said that he loved me unconditionally. I believe that he did" [pp. 254-55]. Can both of these statements be true? If not, which is true and which is false?
10. What other memoir have you read recently? What aspect of the writer's life do you think inspired the author to share her experiences with the public? What do you feel about authors who share their most intimate secrets with the reader?
11. What can a memoir achieve, both for the reader and writer? What is the author trying to capture, or to lay to rest, in writing it? Is the experience of writing, and re-creating the past, a voyage of self-discovery, of catharsis, or both?
Every memoir is particular to the writer's life experience; after reading more than one memoir, however, we frequently find ourselves confronted with the same questions. The questions, discussion topics, biographies, and suggested reading list that follow are intended to enhance your reading and discussion of women's memoirs, in particular Mary Gordon's The Shadow Man and Marion Winik's First Comes Love. These two books tell very different stories, but touch upon similar themes common to the writing of all memoirs.