Table of Contents
Away from madness ; Trapped in the Great Northern Wilderness ; Stream of miserable consciousness / translated by Peidi Zheng -- Confessional ; I've become a different person ; It's hard to explain / translated by Cathy Clayton -- The dear price of worship ; The story of a smile / translated by Richard Seldin and Yanchiao Li -- I refuse to admit I was a sacrificial object ; A man without a story ; Two women of No. 63 ; The Cultural Revolution lasted 2,000 years ; Hair cut by a ghost / translated by Baolin Ma -- Dead face ; Seeking pleasure out of misery / translated by Jane Y. Burk -- Appendix I. Cultural Revolution in the eyes of the new generation / translated by Cathy Clayton -- Appendix II. An interview with the author Feng Jicai / translated by Dietrich Tschanz -- Appendix III. A chronology of events (1949-1979) -- Appendix IV. Key figures of the Cultural Revolution.