Divorce is a difficult business. Never more so, may I suggest, than when your client authoritatively declares all men are bastards, and youre left shifting uncomfortably in your seat.
“Not all men, Mrs. Stephenson,” I venture.
My client ignores my genial smile, gray eyes flicking dismissively around my oak-paneled office. Her gaze briefly snags on the silver-framed photograph of my wife propped beside the leather blotter on my desk; her expression of pity for my spouse places me foursquare with those unfortunates whose parents neglected the legal niceties before bedding down together. Since I have just secured her an extremely generous seven-figure settlement from her ex-husband, I find her disdain for my sex in its entirety a little unfair.
She stands and I rise with her, straightening my silk tie. She extends a scrawny pink tweed arm; her hand sits like a wet fish in mine.
“You may be right, Mr. Lyon,” she says dryly. “Maybe its just the men I marry.”
Her scent is pungent and overpowering: synthetic cat piss. Far too much makeup; I cant imagine kissing those jammy red lips. Shes the kind of woman one would find smeared all over the sheets in the morning, the pillowslip imprinted with her face like the Turin shroud.
Good legs, though. Slender, neat calves, with nicely turned ankles. But no meat on her bones, and breasts like a boy.
My professional smile does not slip as I escort her to the door. I endeavor not to morally judge my clients; its distracting and unproductive. Theres no place in the context of divorce law for emotion or sentimentality; one has quite enough of that kind of thing from ones clients. My wife, of course—being a woman—begs to differ. I consider myself merely objective. Malinche, however, asserts that my “brutal kind of truth,” as she emotively puts it, is akin to judging a womans skin only in the harsh glare of daylight, rather than by the softening glow of the fire. I cant quite see her point.
My client stops suddenly in the doorway; I almost run into the back of her. Her head dips as if in prayer, exposing pale, downy vertebrae beneath the stiff blond bob.
The nape of a womans neck—so vulnerable, so quixotically erotic.
“I always thought—hoped—” she chokes back a sob, “hed change his mind.”
Im at a loss. I certainly did not have this woman pegged as a clinger. Still the right side of forty, she has already acquired a remunerative trio of wealthy ex-husbands, which—despite every effort at objectivity—leads one to make certain assumptions. Put simply: The last thing I expected was for love to come into it.
The womans skinny shoulders start to shake. Oh, Christ. Im so hopeless at this kind of thing. My arms twitch uselessly. Inappropriate in the extreme to hug, but what to do if—God forbid—she starts weeping?
Suddenly her head comes up and she squares her shoulders, reminding me of my eldest daughter Sophie on her first day at school. Without another word, she marches through the open-plan secretarial pool and into the hallway beyond. I breathe a hefty sigh of relief. Thank God. What on earth was that all about?
As I move to close my door, my secretary, Emma, waves.
“Mr. Lyon, its your wife on line two. She says shes sorry to bother you, but can she just have a quick word?”
I hesitate in the doorway. Theres something—I cant quite . . .
“Its my hair, Mr. Lyon,” Emma says patiently. “I had it cut this lunchtime.”
A pity. I rather liked it long.
I return to my desk, glancing at the photograph of Malinche that so aroused my clients irritating compassion as I pick up the phone. It was taken a couple of Christmases ago—by Kit, irritatingly, rather than by me—at the moment she glanced, smiling, over her shoulder, half bending to pull the turkey from the Aga. I feel a thud of gratitude every time I look at it. Its foolish, I know, but even after ten years I still thrill to the words “your wife.” Quite how I won the heart of this extraordinary and beautiful woman is utterly beyond my comprehension. I am merely eternally thankful that I did.
“Chocolate-orange sponge cake flavored with vanilla, orange, and lemon zest, or apricot checkerboard-cake with chocolate ganache?” Mal demands without waiting for me to speak.
I can tell from my wifes strangled tone that she has the handset wedged between her chin and chest and is no doubt stirring something mouthwatering even as we speak. “May one inquire—”
“Heavens, Nicholas, dont be so pompous,” Mal says briskly. “Youre not in Court now. Your surprise birthday cake, of course. Metheny insists we finish it this afternoon before you get home.”
I smile at the mention of my youngest daughter, with whom I share a birthday, preternaturally long toes, and a wicked fondness for pistachio ice cream. I had hoped to share a great deal more, but the ultrasound proved itself less than infallible and my much-longed-for boy and potential fishing and cricket companion turned out to be a surprise third petticoat. As a consolation prize I was allowed to name her after my lifelong hero, jazz guitarist Pat Metheny.
“Let me talk to her and ask her which she suggests,” I posit.
“Dont be silly, Nicholas.”
“You were the one who said she was insisting—”
“Theres more than one way to insist on something, as you should know.”
Her mellifluous voice takes on an unmistakable bed- room timbre, and theres a sudden rallying cry in my trousers as images of well-toned caramel thighs, silk stockings and coffee-colored lace flash unbidden across my minds eye. My witch of a wife is well aware of the effect shes having on me, to judge by the laughter that now replaces the come-hither tone in her voice.
“Anyway,” she lilts, “you cant talk to her or it wont be a surprise.”
“Ill give you a surprise—”
“Now, it wouldnt really be a surprise, would it?”
“Someones feeling cocky,” I say. “What makes you think Im not talking about the latest council tax bill?”
“What makes you think Im not?”
“Im talking cakes, Nicholas. Come on, make up your mind before I have to put two candles on Methenys instead of one.”
“Will I get candles, too?”
“Yes, but not forty-three or the cake will melt.”
“Cruel woman. You too will be forty-three one day, you know.”
“Not for another six years. Now, Nicholas.”
“The chocolate-orange sponge cake, of course. Would it be possible to request bitter chocolate shavings with that?”
“It would. Metheny, please take your foot out of Daddys bowl. Thank you. How did the lovely Mrs. Stephensons case go?”
“Seven figures,” I report.
“Almost double her last divorce. How wonderful. I could almost consider a divorce myself.”
I hear my wife lick her fingers and my erection nearly heaves into view above the desk. “If I thought you could procure seven figures from it, darling, Id draw up the papers for you,” I offer, groaning inwardly. “Cant get blood out of a stone, unfortunately.”
“Oh, that reminds me: Ginger rang from the garage this morning about the Volvo. He said hes fixed the whatever-it-was this time, but its on its last legs. Or should that be wheels?” Her voice ebbs and flows in my ear as she moves about the kitchen. “Anyway, he doesnt think itll last more than another thousand miles or so. So theres no help for it, Ive just got to gird my loins and finish the new book, get the rest of my advance—”
“Darling, I think I can afford to buy my wife a new car if she needs one,” I interrupt, nettled. “Sometimes you seem to forget Im a full equity partner now; theres absolutely no need for you to knock yourself out writing cookery books these days.”
“I like writing cookery books,” Mal says equably. “Oh, God, Metheny, dont do that. Poor rabbit. Sorry, Nicholas, I have to go. Ill see you at the station. Usual time?”
I suppress a sigh of exasperation.
“For Gods sake, Malinche, its Williams retirement party this evening! Dont tell me youve forgotten! Youre supposed to be on the five twenty-eight from Salisbury to Waterloo, remember?”
“So I am,” Mal agrees, unperturbed, “I hadnt really forgotten, it just slipped my mind for a moment. Hold on a second—”
In the background I hear a series of strange muffled thumps, and then Methenys contagious, irrepressible giggles.
Life can be full of surprises. When we learned that Mal was unexpectedly pregnant for the third time I was absolutely horrified. Sophie and Evie were then eight and five; wed just got them to the stage where they were recognizably human and could do civilized things like skiing, or coming out to dinner with us without spending most of the meal crawling around under the table. Now we were to be plunged back into the grim abyss of sleepless nights and shitty nappies. It was only the thought of a son and heir at last that consoled me, and when even that silver lining turned out to be a mirage, I despaired. And yet this last tilt at parenthood has been the sweetest of all. Metheny holds my hardened lawyers heart in her chubby starfish hands.
An echo of small feet on worn kitchen flagstones; and then a squeal as Mal scoops her up and retrieves the telephone receiver. “I really must go, Nicholas,” she says, slightly out of breath.
“You did remember to arrange a babysitter?”
“Mmm. Yes, Kit very sweetly said hed do it.”
I have absolutely nothing against those who choose alternative lifestyles. There is, of course, more to a person than their sexuality. I just dont quite see why it must be forced down ones throat, thats all. I do not parade my red-blooded heterosexuality to all and sundry, although its self-evident. I simply cannot understand why certain sections of the so-called “gay community”—so sad, the way that decent word has been hijacked—feel the need to rub ones nose in their choice of bedmate. However.
I accepted long ago, when I asked Malinche to be my wife, that Kit Westbrook was a minor but salient part of the package. Praemonitus praemunitus, after all: forewarned, forearmed. And I am not the sort of man to start objecting to his wifes friendships, however unsavory.
We met, the three of us, twelve years ago in Covent Garden. I had taken my parents to the opera—La Bohème, if memory serves—to mark my fathers seventieth birthday. Having hailed them a taxi, I was strolling alone through the pedestrian piazza en route to the tube station and thence to my rooms in Earls Court; I remember wishing that for once there was someone waiting at home for me. Despite the lateness of the hour, the square still boasted its usual collection of street performers, and I was just fending off a rather menacing young man mocked up in heavy black-and-white face paint and thrusting a collection hat under my nose, when I noticed a unicyclist start to lose control of his cycle. It swiftly became clear that this wasnt part of his act, and for a moment I watched with morbid fascination as he swung back and forth like a human metronome before waking up and pulling myself together. I barely had time to push a young woman out of his path before he toppled into the small crowd.
At the last moment, he managed to throw himself clear of the spectators, executing a neat forward roll on the cobbles and leaping up to bow somewhat shakily to his audience.
I realized I was clasping the young lady rather inappropriately around the chest, and released her with some embarrassment. “I do apologize, I didnt mean—”
“Oh, please dont! If it werent for you, Id be squished all over the cobblestones. You must have quick reflexes or something. I didnt even see him coming.”
She was startlingly pretty. Unruly dark hair the color of molasses, sparkling cinnamon eyes, clear, luminous skin; and the most engaging and infectious smile I had ever seen. In her early twenties, at a guess; fine-boned and petite, perhaps a full foot shy of my six feet two. I could span her waist with my hands. I find small, delicate women incredibly attractive: they bring out the masculine hunter-gatherer in me.
I noticed that the top two buttons of her peasant-style blouse had come undone in the mêlée, revealing a modest swell of lightly tanned bosom cradled in a froth of white broderie anglaise. My cock throbbed. Quickly, I averted my eyes.
She stood on tiptoe and gripped my shoulder. At her touch, a tumult of images—that glorious hair tangled in my hands, those slender thighs straddling my waist, my lips on her golden breasts—roared through my brain.
“Oh, Lord, youve ripped your coat,” she exclaimed, examining my shoulder seam. “Its all my fault, wandering around in a complete daze, I was thinking about the walnuts, you have to be so careful, of course, dont you, not everyone likes them, and now look at you—”
I have no idea what nonsense I gabbled in return.
“Malinche Sandal,” she said, thrusting her hand at me.
“Ah. Yes. Nicholas Lyon.” I coughed, trying not to picture her hands wrapped around my—“What a very unusual name,” I managed.
“I know.” She grimaced. “My mother is this total hippie; shes convinced our names determine our characters and the entire course of our lives—too much acid in the sixties if you ask me, though perhaps shes right, you cant imagine a romantic hero called Cuthbert, can you, or King Wayne, it just doesnt work—but anyway, she decided better safe than sorry, just to be quite sure. My older sister got stuck with Cleopatra, so I suppose I should be grateful I ended up with Malinche; it could have been Boadicea!”
She glanced down, and I realized I was still holding her hand.
With a flush of embarrassment, I released it, praying she hadnt noticed the tent-pole erection in my trousers.
“Of course! I knew it rang a bell. Malinche was the Indian girl who learned Spanish so that she could help Cortés conquer Mexico in the sixteenth century; without her spying for him he might never have succeeded—” I gave a sheepish smile. “Sorry. Dont mean to go on. Oxford history degree, cant help it.”
Malinche laughed delightedly. “No, its wonderful! Youre the first person Ive ever met whos actually heard of her. This is amazing; it must be Fate.” She slipped her arm through mine and grinned up at me with childlike trust. I stiffened, my loins on fire. “Now, how about you let me cook you dinner to say thank you?”
“Please do. Youd be quite safe, Im a trained chef.”
“But how do you know you would be? You dont even know me.”
“I can always tell,” she said seriously. “You look like the kind of man who would be honest, fair, and, most importantly, optimistic.”
“Well, that is most kind, but—”
“Do you like walnuts?”
“Yes, except in salads, though I dont quite—”
“We were meant to meet this evening, dont you see, you knew all about my name and that has to be a sign. And you like walnuts—well, except in salads, which dont count, no-one sensible likes walnuts in salads. Its serendipity. You cant turn your back on that, can you?”
“Its not a question of—”
“The thing is,” she added earnestly, tilting her head to one side and looking up at me with those glorious toffee-colored eyes, “Im trying to write a cookery book and my entire family is just fed up with being fed, if you see what I mean. Even my friends say theyd give anything just to have pizza, and Im simply desperate for a new guinea pig. You seem a very kind, decent man, Im sure youre not an ax-murderer or anything—”
“Ted Bundy was handsome and charming and mur- dered at least thirty-six women,” a laconic voice drawled behind us.
Malinche swung round, spinning me with her. I was beginning to feel a little bemused by the unexpected direction my evening was taking.
“Kit, at last! Where have you been?”
A saturnine young man in his twenties thrust a paper bag at her. “Getting the bloody blue mood crystals you wanted,” he responded tartly. “Whos the new arm candy?”
“Nicholas Lyon,” I said, overlooking his rudeness and extending my hand.
The young man ignored it, taking possession of Malinches free arm and glaring at me as he linked us together in an ungainly ménage à trois which—though I didnt know it then—was a precursory metaphor for our relationship down the years.
“Oh, Kit, dont be difficult.” Malinche sighed. “Mr. Lyon, this is Kit Westbrook, my oldest and apparently crossest friend, and one of those very weary guinea pigs I was telling you about. Kit, Mr. Lyon just saved me from being squashed by a runaway unicyclist, and tore his very smart coat in the process. Help me persuade him to come back with us for dinner; hes being far too polite about it all.”
“I dont mean to be rude,” Kit said, clearly meaning it very much, “but Mal, you dont know this man from Adam. You cant just go round inviting strange men home for dinner, even if they do rescue you from certain death by circus performer.”
“Your friend is right,” I concurred regretfully. “You really shouldnt take such risks, although Im not actually a psychopathic serial killer, which suddenly makes me feel rather dull—”
Malinche pealed with laughter. “See?” she said, as if that settled everything. In the end, of course, it did.
I realized right from the start that Kit wasnt a rival for Malinche in the usual sense of the word. He was always too flamboyantly dressed to be anything other than homosexual—in the midst of the dress-down, austere nineties, he sported velvet frock coats and waterfall lace cravats and knew the names for a dozen different shades of beige. But as far as Kit was concerned, Malinche was his best friend, and even now, after a decade of marriage and three children, he still hasnt quite accepted that she possesses a husband who has first call upon her. And then there was the matter of Trace Pitt, of course.
Nothing is ever quite as it seems with Kit. He is, after all, an actor. In fairness, though, I must admit hes been a conscientious godfather, always remembering birthdays and the like. And the girls adore him. Not necessarily my first choice; but there we are.
My secretary ushers my four oclock appointment into my office. I wish Id thought to remind Mal to bring Williams retirement gift with her. In her current mood, shed quite likely to bake it and wrap the birthday cake instead. For the life of me, I cant recall what she said shed bought, but Im quite certain it will be eminently appropriate. Mals gifts always are; she just has that feminine knack. I always leave Christmas and birthdays entirely to her, even for my side of the family. Shes just so much better at it.
Firmly putting personal matters out of my mind, I pull a pad of paper toward me and unscrew the lid of my fountain pen. Its not as if Kit could ever do anything to undermine my marriage. Were far too strong for that.
Mr. Colman is a new client, so I take detailed longhand notes as he describes the unhappy route that has led him here, to the grim finality of a divorce lawyers office. Hes aptly named, with hair the color of mustard and a sallow cast to his skin. Once we have established the basics, I explain the bureaucratic procedure of divorce, the forms that must be filed, the documents supplied, the time and the cost—financial only; the emotional price he will soon discern himself—involved.
“We want it all to be amicable,” he interrupts brightly. “Theres no need to run up huge bills arguing over the plasma TV;, weve both said that. We just want to get on with it, make a clean break of things. For the childrens sakes.”
I refrain from telling him that its not about the plasma television, its never about the television; at least to begin with. Its about a husband dumping his wife of twenty years for a younger, bustier model. Its about a wife jettisoning her balding husband for a Shirley Valentine affair with the Italian ski instructor. Its about disappointment, hurt, banality, and betrayal. But because you cannot quantify any of these things, in the end it does come down to the television, and the spoons, and that hideous purple vase Great-aunt Bertha gave you as a wedding present that youve both always hated, and which you will now spend thousands of pounds fighting to own.
All but a handful of my clients—the hardened marital veterans, repeat customers whove been divorced before—sit before me and tell me they want their divorce to be amicable. But if they were capable of resolving their differences amicably, they wouldnt be in my office in the first place.
“And the grounds for the petition?” I ask briskly.
Always a revealing moment, this. For the first time, Mr. Colman looks uncomfortable. I know instantly there is another woman in the wings. I gently explain to my client that if his wife has not deserted him or committed adultery—he responds with almost comic indignation that she has not—and will not agree to a divorce, as the law stands he will either have to wait five years to obtain his freedom without her consent, or else cobble together a charge of unreasonable behavior.
“I cant wait five years!” he exclaims. “Ive only been married to the bitch for four! I call that un-fucking-reasonable.”
The path from amicable to Anglo-Saxon has been even shorter than usual.
“Mr. Colman, please. Let us be calm. It is my experience that the wife can usually be persuaded to divorce her husband, if there are sufficient grounds, rather than face a charge of unreasonable behavior. Are there such grounds?” He nods curtly. “Then I feel sure we can persuade her to divorce you.”
“Going to cost me, though, isnt it?” he says bitterly. “Shell take me to the fucking cleaners.”
“Its more a question of weighing up what is most important to you, and focusing on that,” I say neutrally.
It is with relief that I finally bid the intemperate Mr. Colman farewell some fifty minutes later. Working at the grimy coal face of marital breakdown is never pleasant, but usually I draw comfort from the thought that my interposition makes palatable what is unavoidably a very bitter pill for most of my clients. At five oclock on a bleak November Friday, however, after a very long week dealing with the Mrs. Stephensons and Mr. Colmans of this world, its hard to feel anything other than despair at the intractable nature of human relationships.
The better part of two decades as a divorce lawyer has brought me no closer to fathoming how people find themselves in these painful imbroglios. I know that old-fashioned morality is very passé these days, but having witnessed the destruction and misery that infidelity wreaks—and adultery is invariably the rock upon which the marital ship founders—I can say with some authority that a quick hows-your-father in the broom cupboard is never worth it.
My view is skewed, of course, by the scars of my own childhood. But an inbuilt bias toward fidelity is, I think, a good thing.
I realize, of course, how lucky I am to have a happy marriage. Mal firmly believes that Fate meant us to be together—her bashert, she calls me. Yiddish for “destined other,” apparently (she spent summer on a kibbutz with a Jewish boyfriend when she was seventeen). Im afraid I dont believe in that kind of superstitious Destiny nonsense, any more than I do horoscopes or tarot cards; but Im only too aware how rare it is these days to attain your fifth wedding anniversary, never mind your tenth.
Reminds me. Ours is sometime around Christmas—the eighteenth or nineteenth, I think. I must remember to find her something particularly special this year. Shell kill me if I forget again.
I spend the next hour or so absorbed in paperwork. When Emma knocks on my door, it is with some surprise that I note that it is almost seven.
“Mr. Lyon, everyones going over to Milagros now for Mr. Fishers party,” she says. “Are you coming with us, or did you want to wait for Mrs. Lyon?”
“I believe she said shed get a taxi straight to the restaurant from the station. But I need to finish this Consent Order tonight. You go on ahead. Ill be with you as soon as Im done.”
Emma nods and withdraws.
Quietly I work on the draft order, enjoying the rare peace that has descended on the empty office. Without the distraction of the telephone or interruptions from my colleagues, it takes me a fraction of the time it would do normally, and I finish in less than forty minutes. Perfect timing; Mal should be arriving at the restaurant at any moment.
I loosen my suspenders a little as I push back from my desk, reflecting wryly as I put on my jacket and raincoat that being married to a celebrity cook is not entirely good news. I rather fear my venerable dinner jacket, which has seen me through a dozen annual Law Society dinners, will not accommodate my burgeoning waistline for much longer.
Bidding the cleaner good evening as I pass through reception, in a moment of good resolution I opt to take the stairs rather than the lift down the four floors to street level.
As I come into the hallway, I find a young woman in a pale green suit hovering uncertainly by the lifts, clearly lost. She jumps when she sees me and I pause, switching my briefcase to the other hand as I push the chrome bar on the fire door to the stairwell.
“Can I help you?”
“Im looking for Fisher Raymond Lyon. Am I on the right floor?”
“Yes, but Im afraid the office is closed for the night. Did you want to make an appointment?”
“Oh, Im not a client,” she says quickly. “Im a solicitor. My names Sara Kaplan—Im starting work here next Monday.”
“Ah, yes, of course.” I let the fire door swing shut and extend my hand. “Nicholas Lyon, one of the partners. Im afraid I was detained on a difficult case in Leeds when my colleagues interviewed you; I do apologize. I understand you come highly recommended from your previous firm.”
“Thank you. Im very much looking forward to working here.”
“Good, good. Well, welcome to the firm. Ill look forward to seeing you on Monday.”
I hesitate as she makes no move to leave.
“Miss Kaplan, did you just want to drop off some paperwork, or was there something else?”
She fiddles nervously with her earring. The uncertain gesture suggests shes younger than I had at first thought, perhaps twenty-five, twenty-six. “Um. Well, its just that Mr. Fisher invited me to his leaving party, and I thought it might be nice to meet everyone before Monday—”
“Oh, I see. Yes, of course. Its not here, though, its at the Italian restaurant across the road. Im just going over there myself.”
Eschewing the stairs for the sake of courtesy, I sum- mon the lift and we stand awkwardly next to each other, studiously avoiding eye contact, as it grinds its way up four floors. Shes tall for a woman, probably five ten or so. Short strawberry blond hair, wide swimmers shoulders, skin honeyed by the sun, and generous curves that will run to fat after shes had children if shes not careful. Her nose is a little large, but surprisingly it doesnt ruin her appearance—quite the contrary. Its quirky route down her face leavens otherwise predictable, glossy good looks. I suspect a fearsome intellect and formidable will lurk behind those clear mushroom gray eyes. Attractive, in a magnificent, statuesque way, but absolutely not my type at all.
Although she does have a certain earthiness. A just-fallen-out-of-bed air.
Christ, I want her.