Synopses & Reviews
How do you describe an addiction in which the drug of choice creates a hole in your memory, a white out,” so that every time you use it is the first time--new, fascinating, and vivid? Michael W. Clunes original, edgy yet literary telling of his own story takes us straight inside such an addiction--what he calls the
Memory Disease.With black humor and quick, rhythmic prose, Clunes gripping account of life inside the heroin underground reads like no other, as we enter the mind of the addict and navigate the world therein. Clune whisks us between the streets of Baltimore and the university campus, revealing his dual life while a graduate student teaching literature. We spiral downward with Clune--from nodding off in an abandoned row-house with a one-armed junkie and a murderous Jesus freak to scanning a crowded lecture hall for an enemy with a gun.
After experiencing his descent into addiction, we go with him through detox, treatment, and finally into recovery as he returns to his childhood home and to the world of color. It is there that the Memory Disease and his heroin-induced white out begins to fade.
Review
Excerpt from White Out by the author, Michael W. Clune, "Im sitting there at Doms, minding my business. Henrys kind of talking; Im kind of listening. Then I see a white-topped vial. Wow. I stare at it. Its the first time Ive ever seen it. I know Ive seen it ten thousand times before. I know it only leads to bad things. I know Ive had it and touched it and used it and shaken the last particles of white from the thin, deep bottom one thousand times. But there it is. And its the first time Ive ever seen it. The first time I encountered dope isnt somewhere else; it isnt in the past. Its right over there. Its on the table.
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Chosen as one of the Best Books of the Year by The New Yorker, NPR's On Point, and The Millions"
"The unusual risk taken by Clune's unusually good addiction memoir is its enduring lyrical reverence for heroin. The heroin is so close you can see the white. It hasn't been relegated to the past. It has an honest and dangerous smile. It's right here, whitely licking its chops."
--Gideon Lewis-Kraus, The New Yorker
"His style is direct and confessional, and draws attention to the humour in addiction. He also writes about his theory of addiction... The novelty doesnt come from the feeling of doing the drug, which Clune says starts to suck pretty quickly. Instead its the image, and the persistent newness of the image, that keeps him coming back."
--Miranda Critchley, London Review of Books.
"An astonishing new book! White Out is more than a recovery memoir. It is a phenomenology of heroin addiction--the single best thing I have read about the drug--and a deep, often beautiful meditation on the nature of memory, pleasure, and time."
--Lorin Stein, The Paris Review Daily
"A terrific memoir."
--Clancy Marin, The Chronicle of Higher Education
"A deeply thought-through, reasonable, unified, maybe teachable understanding of memory and self and habit."
--Tao Lin, The Believer
"Clune's razor-sharp description of the magical first time he got high exemplifies why this stands out among dime-a-dozen addiction memoirs.
At its best, this chronicle keenly touches on the devastations of heroin with disciplined literary flair."
--Publishers Weekly, Starred Review
"Disturbing, brilliant, hilarious--it's as if Proust had written Jesus' Son."
--Ben Lerner, author of Leaving the Atocha Station
"Raw, fresh, and relevant, White Out transcends the recent rash of addiction memoirs to meditate upon addiction as a disease of memory. Like an avalanche in a haunted Candy Land, this book is an onslaught of connections between past and present, between a blizzard of writing and the blank world of terminal addiction."
--Nancy D. Campbell, PhD, author of Discovering Addiction: The Science and Politics of Substance Abuse Research and co-author of The Narcotic Farm: The Rise and Fall of America's First Prison for Drug Addicts
"The book works on many levels. It's a cautionary tale full of black, self-deprecating humor. The writing is hip, bleak and funny."
--Michael Heaton, The Plain Dealer
"Clune analyzes the power of addiction, calling it a 'deep memory disease,' the 'white out' of his future when he was using and of his past."
--Barbara McIntyre, Akron Beacon Journal
"A memoir that reads like a lost modernist novel--James Joyce as a junkie in modern day Baltimore. James Frey eat your heart out."
--Adam Wilson, The Millions
Synopsis
Clune s gripping account of life inside the heroin underground reads like no other, as we enter the mind of the addict and navigate the world therein.
How do you describe an addiction in which the drug of choice creates a hole in your memory, a white out, so that every time you use it is the first time--new, fascinating, and vivid? Michael W. Clune s original, edgy yet literary telling of his own story takes us straight inside such an addiction--what he calls the Memory Disease.With black humor and quick, rhythmic prose, Clune s gripping account of life inside the heroin underground reads like no other, as we enter the mind of the addict and navigate the world therein. Clune whisks us between the streets of Baltimore and the university campus, revealing his dual life while a graduate student teaching literature. We spiral downward with Clune--from nodding off in an abandoned row-house with a one-armed junkie and a murderous Jesus freak to scanning a crowded lecture hall for an enemy with a gun.After experiencing his descent into addiction, we go with him through detox, treatment, and finally into recovery as he returns to his childhood home and to the world of color. It is there that the Memory Disease and his heroin-induced white out begins to fade."
Synopsis
An In-Depth Look into the Life and Mind of a Heroin Addict
"Then I see a white-topped vial. Wow. I stare at it. It's the first time I've ever seen it. I know I've seen it ten thousand times before. I know it only leads to bad things. I know I've had it and touched it and used it and shaken the last particles of white from the thin deep bottom one thousand times. But there it is. And it's the first time I've ever seen it."
--Excerpted from White Out
How do you describe an addiction in which the drug of choice creates a hole in your memory, a "white out," so that every time you use it is the first time--new, fascinating, and vivid? Michael W. Clune's original, edgy yet literary telling of his account of life inside the heroin underground reads like no other, as we enter the mind of the addict and navigate the world therein. After his descent into addiction, we go with him through detox, treatment, and finally into recovery as he returns to his childhood home. There his heroin-induced "white out" begins to fade.
About the Author
Michael W. Clune is an assistant professor at Case Western Reserve University and is the author of a scholarly book on American literature published by Cambridge University Press.
Table of Contents
Chapter One: Memory Disease
Chapter Two: The Castle
Chapter Three: The Future Lasts Forever
Chapter Four: Hello, Stripe
Chapter Five: Everything is Green
Chapter Six: White-Out
Chapter Seven: Funboys
Chapter Eight: Sorrow
Chapter Nine: Pleasure
Chapter Ten: Bloodless
Chapter Eleven: The People
Chapter Twelve: Love
Chapter Thirteen: 26th and California
Chapter Fourteen: Forgetfulness
Chapter Fifteen: Outside
Chapter Sixteen: Endless
Epilogue