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mydestiny3
, July 12, 2010
First of all I'll be the first to admit, as the AUTHOR of this book, the approach to the subject matter is a bit different and unique compared to the other books written about Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly MPD - Multiple Personality Disorder). It discusses my life growing up as a loaner trying to fit in as a shy, introverted, social misfit with extreme intelligence and artistic abilities. Much of the book was written with the aide of vivid memories, the use of journal entries and detailed research and inclusion of records and charting notes obtained from various psychiatric hospitalizations. At the end of the book, each of my "key alter personalities" writes a mini-autobiography of themselves, and in most cases, has chosen a picture from the family photo album of how they best saw themself.
Somewhere around 1996-97, the voices and chaos seemed to disappear and I thought I had experienced a silent integration of some sort of the alters and began to lead a somewhat stable, normal, but seemingly dull life. Between 2004-06 I experienced a major work injury that turned my physical and emotional world upside down and put me into a downward, destructive spin that ended in a half dozen major psychiatric hospitalizations and 4 serious suicide attempts. However, since 2004, I've learned more about myself. My DID was actually a coping mechanism I developed to survive in a chaotic society of abuse and inhumanity of left-brain thinkers and egoists against any human who was seen as "different" or "special". You see, since 2005, I've learned that even though I suffered through very severe depressions and had/have alternate personalities to survive, the truth is, that beneath all that, I'm a virgin Autistic Savant who has been free to explore a multitude of phenomenal gifts and talents I've been blessed with.
No wonder a nobody like me, whose book with a small limited print run, that is now out of print, is now being sold for 3-7 times its original price. It was during illegal, abusive and dehumanizing studies conducted during psych hospitalizations that I learned the truth about who and what I am. It's taken 5 years, but I have finally broken free of those nightmares and ready to pursue a 2nd edition of the Sorority entitled "Sorority of Survival Revisited". So if you are having a hard time getting a copy of this first book, hang in there, a new and even more remarkable story about mental illness, DID, abuse, self-discovery and recovery is in the works.
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