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Chapter 1: What is Perfectionism?”When I tell people that Im writing a book about perfectionism, I usually get one of three responses:
1. I need that!
2. My wife/boss/sister/father needs that!
3. I am not a perfectionist.
The first group is predictably small, but self-selected and honest. The second group is much largereveryone seems to know someone else who suffers from perfectionism. But the third group is by far the largest. No one, it seems, wants to be seen or see himself as a perfectionist. But all this changes when I explain what I mean by perfectionism. At that point, people in the last group inevitably say, Wait, thats me!”
Why? Because as I mentioned earlier, even if you dont view yourself as a perfectionist, you may have some behaviors or tendencies associated with perfectionism. And its likely that these traits have proved to be counterproductive or even damaging to your quality of lifeyour well-being, your sense of yourself, and the relationships you value the most.
As a recovering perfectionist, Im here to tell you that perfectionism doesnt mean perfect. Far from it. Perfectionism is defined as a tendency to set standards that are unreasonably high and to measure an individuals worth in terms of his ability to meet these standards.” In reality, it is deeper than that. Lets look a little more closely at the features that perfectionists often exhibit. See if you can see yourself in any or all of these characteristics:
Perfectionists have extremely high standards that are nearly impossible to achieve on a consistent basis, and they experience serious distress when those standards arent met. This extreme mindset often carries over into unrealistic expectations of others.
Perfectionists view many aspects of life in all-or-nothing terms, such as I either get 100 percent correct on the test or Im a failure.” They view people, experiences, and their own performance as being at one extreme or the other, either all good” or all bad.” Unfortunately, that leaves little room for success and lots of room for perceived failure.
One of the most ironic facts of all is, despite the name, perfectionists dont think theyre perfect at all. In fact, because perfection” is the only acceptable level of successand no one is perfectthey instead tend to view themselves as failures.
A conditional view of themselves is at the core of perfectionism. They equate their self-worth with the achievement of specific, often unattainable goals. In their minds, they are only as good as their last accomplishment.
Perfectionists beat themselves up in their drive to be better. Stick a microphone inside their brains and you will hear a lot of self-criticism: I should have tried harder” or I am such a loser.” They do this because they want to be bettermore successful, more prosperous, more perfect.” Ironically, though, this negative self-talk often has the opposite effect. It causes more stress and anxiety and brings about less success.
Perfectionists also tend to be reliant on other peoples praise, often basing their worth on how others react to them. While it may make them uncomfortable or they may openly minimize what they have done, deep down perfectionists often long to hear how impressed others are with them and their accomplishments. To garner praise, a woman may put aside her own needs and desires. For instance, she may stay up all night working on a project for her boss or skip her favorite girls night out” because the PTA asked for help on that same evening. (Confession: I once skipped going to a wedding of a very good friend, a wedding that promised to be all kinds of fun, in order to study.)
This focus on, and fear of, negative evaluation robs perfectionists of the ability to achieve true happiness and a sense of peace. On the outside, they may appear happy, but underneath that perfect” shell is a barrage of self-disparaging thoughts. Theyll replay negative past events over and over (and over) for what they didnt do or shouldnt have done. And theyll base their view of their success on the praise of others.
Perfectionists are more motivated by fear than by the prospect of fun, especially fear of failure and being seen negatively by others. Their focus tends to be on how to not fail.” The result is an internal concentration on What am I doing wrong?” and What should I be doing?” rather than What am I doing right?” and What do I want to be doing?”
Perfectionists often have a need for perfectionism. As such, they are quite fearful of giving it up. They want to excel, to create excellence, to be the best. And they think their perfectionism is the only way they can achieve this. It is true that some of their behaviorthe hard work, determination, perseverance, relentlessness, diligence, and strivingcan assist with this. At the same time, the excessive worry, stress, unrealistic standards, constant pressure, and beating themselves up can actually make them less efficient and successful in the long run. In effect, perfectionism can be self-defeating.
Their fear of failure feeds indecisiveness. You can see this when perfectionists have a tough time making a decision; theyre scared theyll choose incorrectly.” Their all-or-nothing thinking instills a belief that there is one answer that is right,” while the rest are wrong.” They dont want to say the wrong thing (which they view as an indication that they themselves are wrong, bad, and not good enough), and as a result they often avoid saying anything definitive at all. They also fear others will view their decisions as poor or stupid.
There is a great paradox behind all this: While many perfectionists are overachievers, sometimes they show up at the other end of the spectrum as underachievers. Some avoid taking on certain tasks with the attitude I cant do it perfectly, so why even bother trying?” This looks like procrastination or avoidance. Other times, we can see this attitude in people who are stuck in jobs that are way below their potential because theyre afraid of rising to a new level and failing.” Or, you might also see it in those who have tried to lose weight in the past and not had lasting results. Why bother exercising when I cant keep the weight off?”