Falco: Sam Falco interviewing Grayson Wilton, age fifteen, at South Juvenile Detention Center, case number 9872. Gray, Ive told you about the tape recorder. Am I right that you have no objections to it? . . . Gray?
Gray: Yeah, okay. I guess. I dont really care.
Falco: Okay. Thank you. So—I guess we might as well get started. Lets see—okay, when did you move to Connecticut?
Gray: Last summer. August? Around the middle.
Falco: Go on.
Gray: What? Go on where? With what?
Falco: Well—how about your new place? Whats
the first thing you remember doing there? Unpacking? Exploring?
Gray: No. Mowing. I remember cutting the grass. Yeah, and counting . . .
One hundred and fifty-three steps, big ones, from the house to the street, and one hundred and seventy-five from side to side. That was our front lawn in Greenford, Connecticut, which my mother made me mow almost as soon as we moved into our new house. I guess that makes it twenty-six thousand, seven hundred and seventy-five square steps big.
Mowings not too bad of a job, so I didnt mind much, even though I was in a sort of bad mood about moving. Hopeful, too, though.
I stopped counting and made up one of those whatchamacallits, you know, mantras? Gonna be better, gonna be better here; gonna be better, gonna be better here. That got pretty lame, though, so I stopped and tried to blank my mind, but now it kept wanting to go mow, mow, mow your—what? I couldnt think of what. Not boat. Grass? Yard?
By the time Id run out of mind games and was pretty sweaty, this girl came over from next door carrying a dish, like a one-girl Welcome Wagon. She was like, “Hi, Im Lindsay Maller, from next door. My mom made a casserole for you guys. You know, welcome to the neighborhood, welcome to Greenford, Connecticut, too.”
I knew she was trying to make conversation, but I was worried shed be able to smell me from ten feet—no, wrong, back to counting: ten steps—away, so I just told her my mom was inside and went back to counting and mowing. By the time I was done I was really thirsty, so I went in to get a drink and I saw the girl was sitting at the kitchen table with my brother, Peter. Mom was handing out Cokes and I wanted to get one, too, but I was still sweaty and the girl was right there. I was trying to decide whether to go in anyway or get some water from the bathroom when I heard Mom say, “So, you must be—what? Sixteen?”
“Yes, sixteen,” the girl said.
“Peters seventeen and Grayson—Gray, my other son—is fourteen. I dont suppose you have a little brother?”
“No, sorry,” she said. “A sister, Joni. Shes eight.”
“Too young for Gray,” Mom said, “even though hes small and young for his age.” She dropped her voice almost like she knew I was there. “You know—immature.”
Well, how could I go in then? I could feel my face getting red and my sort-of bad mood getting really bad. I forgot about being thirsty, and I really wanted to bang on my drums, which is what sometimes helped when I was mad. But my drums werent set up yet and I couldnt get at them anyway, so I ran back outside, shoved the lawn mower into the garage, and rummaged in the U-Haul for my target and bow and arrows, thinking, Damn, whyd she say that about me being small and immature? Cant my own mother tell Im not done growing? Jemmy—he was my best friend back in Massachusetts—grew a lot that year all of a sudden, and when we moved, his mom was still kidding about how she had to keep buying him new jeans.
Then I said to myself, Chill, Gray. Gonna be better, gonna be better here, remember? Hey, maybe my zits might even go away this year.
Yeah, in my dreams.
Dad never did really come right out and tell the truth about why we had to move to Connecticut. What he said was itd be an easy commute into New York City to his new job. But he didnt have to get a new job. There wasnt anything wrong with his old one. Hes some kind of supervisor at a business-machine company. Thats what he did at his old job, too, so whats the big difference? “More money, guys” was what he told us, though, and he gave my brother, Peter, one of his chip-off-the-old-block punches. “More money for college for my Number-OneSon.”
Maybe you noticed that he didnt say anything about his Number-Two Son. See, I was the real reason for the new job and the move, and the reason both Mom and Dad seemed to be waiting for me to screw up again, and the reason why we never had any fun as a family, all four of us, anymore.
We used to do stuff on weekends, like a normal family. The zoo, hikes, museums. We even went to Disney World when I was little. That was fun. Neat rides and stuff. And we once all stood outside the fence at this little racetrack and watched ten races from there because kids werent allowed inside where there was betting going on. But we bet each other, and I won a dollar.
No more, though.
But thingsll be better here, I told myself. Im gonna change. We all are. Moms gonna stand up to Dad more, and Dads gonna stop getting on my case, and Perfect Peters gonna make a mistake once in a while, and Im gonna stop making mistakes. Change for the better, you know?
Yeah.
I tried to feel it in my—bones, I guess. Isnt that where people are supposed to feel things like that?
Like thats really possible!
Id found my archery stuff by then, and my dog, Barker—he was a brown and white springer spaniel—was looking at me from where he was sitting in the driveway. He stretched his front legs out and sent his rump up like dogs do when they want to play.
“Come watch me shoot,” I told him. I lugged the target to the backyard and set it up. “Lets go get us some bulls-eyes.”
I did get some, too, and Barker watched, grinning like he always did. Hed tried to chase my arrows a couple of times back when he was a puppy, but as soon as he saw that they pretty much always went into the target, he stopped. And this time was no different. By the time Dad drove in, back from whatever had sent him to the hardware store, there was a whole cluster of arrows sticking out of the center of the target. I felt better, too.
“You oughta move that target back some, Gray,” Dad called almost before he was all the way out of the car. “Make it harder for yourself.”
That was it. Nothing about the bulls-eyes. No “Nice shooting” or “Way to go, kid,” like he used to say. As soon as hed told me to move the target, Dad lumbered into the house, carrying a paper bag of whatever hed dashed out for.
Okay, so then my mantra about things getting better did a nosedive out of my head and I slammed my hand against the target, nearly knocking it over and making Barker look up from the sun patch he was snoozing in. As I started to yank the arrows out I heard Peter yell, “Hey, dont wreck it!”
My big brother—people say he looks like Dad and I look like Mom—came out the back door, gave Barker a pat on the head as he passed, and then slapped me on the back. Hes like, “Wow,” as he examined what was left of the arrow cluster. “Have to start calling you Robin Hood.” He pulled out the rest of the arrows and handed them to me. “How about a run? Mom says were going out for dinner. Weve got time to explore. Although,” he said, sort of wagging his head at the street, “it looks to me as if theres not a whole lot to see.” He slapped me on the back again. “Cmon anyway. Lets go change.”
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