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Ironic that I was listening to the Requiem on the night my daughter died. Dark, fiery Mozart that I could feel through my seat—Hostias or Sanctus by the time the call came.
Lynn and I were in a box at the Carmel Symphony, and as usual I was having difficulty deciding whether to stare at the frenetic strings or swing my chair around to watch the beach and ocean through the transparent back wall. I remember that detail because I missed the first buzz of the glasses in the movement of the chair as I finally turned toward the water. And I know the waves were in front of me when Paul spoke; I could never forget that image and the accompanying thoughts, even if I tried.
The second buzz was unmistakable as I was now sitting still, but I didnt answer right away, because I was hit with an incomparable feeling of surprise and then dread. There were only two or three people who could have been calling me at a time like this, and it had never happened before—hence the surprise. There were very few reasons why someone would use that line, and they were all bad—thus the dread. I could almost feel the same emotions rising within Lynn when she saw me fumbling in my coat pocket for the glasses and slipping them on. Her eyes stayed fixed on me as I raised my hand and touched the top of the right arm to answer the call.
The glasses were on audio-only because I had used them on the drive in, so I watched the spotlighted waves through the clear lenses and said hello.
“Michael,” Pauls voice said. “Was Lynette with D tonight?” Then a moment of silence that seemed to last forever. When I remember it, I remember that the waves had stopped moving.
“Wh…” My throat constricted involuntarily. “What do you mean, ‘was?” Another long silence, the waves still not moving.
“God.” The word was stretched into several short syllables, like he was starting to cry. “Theres no easy way to do this. Im so sorry.…” I heard Lynn say, “What?” next to me, barely audible over the din of the orchestra and choir.
“They blew up his car, with him in it,” Paul continued. “And whoever else was with him.” I jerked to my feet, took a step away from Lynn, and then stopped. Her hand had gripped my jacket. I took it with both of mine and leaned down close to her ear.
“Lynn,” as my mind flipped through the options, “just stay here. Ill get back to you.” She shook her head, squinting her eyes, and started to say “What?” again. “Just wait here till you hear from me.” I said it louder, over the music. I pushed her hand down onto her armrest, as if that could keep her there, and leaped out the door and into the foyer. The big room started spinning when the light hit me, and I changed directions twice before finding the one I wanted.
As I sprinted to the escalator, I heard my name repeated by two voices—the mans was a soft pleading in my head and the womans was an angry shout from behind me. I started up the escalator, but stopped when obstructed by a wide-eyed couple in tuxedos, who were staring back at me and holding on to their drinks for dear life.
At this point I finally gave attention to the voices. The mans was Paul, speaking to me through the glasses. But I told him to wait, because Lynn had reached the bottom of the escalator and was catching her breath.
“What are you doing?” she said, gasping. Then her anger turned, visibly, to fear. “Youre white as a sheet.”
“I told you to—” I stumbled backward as the escalator ended, then bit my lip and took her hand when she arrived. As we jogged to the next escalator, I said Pauls name.
“Yes, Michael.”
“Just tell me where. I want to talk to Lynn in the car.”
“Ds city house.”
“Its over, right?” I asked, and stepped on another ascending stairway.
“Yes, its over.”
“Are you there?”
“No, but I can be.”
“Yes, please. And dont assign anyone.”
“Okay. Ill see you there.” As I reached up to tap the glasses off, he said, “Im sorry,” again. By then we had climbed the last escalator, and the roof access security booth was in view. Our fast approach startled the rent-a-cop; his hand rested on his gun as I dug the card out of my jacket.
“Any problem, Mr. Ares?” he asked politely.
“No, just open the door.” He did, after scanning the card, and we hurried out into the windy ocean air. The Infant was alone on the landing; we got in and took off.
After the beeping and blinking of the air scan stopped, we sat in silence, Lynn staring at me and waiting for me to tell her what she already knew, somehow, as mothers do. When I did, she screamed and slapped at me ferociously until I got control of her hands. Then she just sobbed and kept saying, “Its not true,” for the rest of the ride. I said, “We dont know yet,” a few times, but it was unconvincing even to me, because somehow I did know, as if I had been there, that my little girl was gone.
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The night was clear enough that I could see the castle from far away, as we approached the city. It was unmistakable because of its sheer size, the green-and-black checkerboard pattern of the huge rectangular lightpads on its sides, and, of course, its location. It sat atop Nob Hill, the highest point in the city, protruding thirty stories into the night sky (and almost as wide), like the medieval keep of a feudal lord overlooking the meager dwellings of his vassals. The mammoth structure had lost its wonder for me a long time ago, but on this night, for the first time, I actually resented the sight of it. If I hadnt been working there, of course, my family would never have been at risk.
I steered toward Ds house visually, using the big square building as a reference point, and didnt use the windshield map until I was close, and the scan had begun protesting the unusual number of aeros congregated in the air and on the ground near the crime scene. The three or four in the air backed off conspicuously as I approached, much like a crowd of people would do to someone in my predicament. I descended to the street outside Ds gate, then locked Lynns door as she reached to open it.
“You cant just go running in there,” I said, and reached for her hand, which she pulled away.
“Dont touch me,” she said, then added mercifully, “Right now.”
I reached for the belt embedded in the seat behind my waist, and thought about strapping on the boas, as I would if I were working. But I was there as a father, not as an agent of BASS, so I left the guns there and opened the door, freeing Lynn at the same time. She must have gotten the point, because she stayed near her side of the car as Paul appeared out of the small crowd of public servants.
“Michael, Lynn,” he said, with a sad but somehow reassuring look on his face. He went to Lynn and hugged her before she could refuse, a gesture that seemed appropriate at first but then quickly turned awkward. So he stepped over to me and took my hand, then my shoulders, in his. There were tears in his eyes—another image I will never forget.
“Listen, Michael,” he said. “We can do this as if you were just a civilian. You dont need to know any more than is necessary, and you can let us handle it all. In fact, I would suggest you do that, as Dr. Gross does.” He gestured briefly with his head, and I noticed the suit standing at the edge of the crowd, watching us clinically.
“But its your call, of course,” he continued. “Whatever you want.”
“I appreciate your concern, Paul,” I said to the big man with the wet eyes. “But Im involved, and I want to know it all. And I want him to be gone.” Glancing at the suit.
“Yes, of course,” Paul said, and waved his hand at the man, who immediately walked away, muttering something into his glasses. “And Lynn?”
We both looked at her, and she nodded stiffly. The pain on her face made her look like a different woman.
“Then come with me.”
Paul walked toward the gate and through the crowd, which parted for us like the aeros had. I stared at his big back, not wanting to see who was there or feel their eyes on me. Soon it was just the three of us and the smoldering piles in the driveway. There were familiar burning smells, plus one that you dont encounter often. I knew what it was, and I was grateful that Lynn did not.
These were the remains of a ground car; I knew that only because Id seen such things before. For Lynns sake, Paul explained that it was the one D had used to go back and forth from the castle. His primary residence was in the Napa Valley, on a hill next to ours, but he had kept this place for when he didnt want to make the trip up there. He used the ground car to get here for security purposes, not wanting to attract extra attention with an aero.
I remembered that Paul had criticized D several times for the risks he created even by having the house, let alone by confining himself to the streets by not using one of the flying cars. Paul was repeating this idea now, adding, “Thats why we have the damn things.”
“Tech been on this?” I interrupted.
“Yes. Garland!” Another regal gesture, and the woman was in front of us.
“Where do you want me to start, sir?” she said to me or Paul, who looked at me.
“Victims,” I answered. She looked at Lynn, swallowed hard, and began.
“Darien Anthony, forty-two-year-old African American male, was in the drivers seat, with his foot on the brake. His eight-year-old son, Michael, was behind him, strapped in.” She swallowed hard again, but didnt look at anybody. “And on her knees at the back passenger-side window was a four-year-old Caucasian female—”
Fortunately for Garland, she didnt have to finish, because Lynn shrieked and struck at me wildly again. I let her pound away for a few seconds, then Paul and I sandwiched her between us, immobilizing her as gently as we could until she ran out of energy. After an extended silence, her muffled voice asked Paul if he knew where the boys mother was these days. He said no, and if he didnt know, nobody did. Perhaps she would surface when she heard about it on the news.
I let Paul hold Lynn and turned to the woman again. I asked about the explosives.
“All-switch claymore,” she said. “The perp slid it under the passenger side and dove away. The timing had to be impeccable for him to walk away, and the fibers on the driveway are untraceable. He knew what he was doing, and I have some very educated guesses about what else he knew, but I usually save them for when the sim is ready.”
“Tell me now,” I said, but Paul moved himself and Lynn forward slightly.
“Lynns had enough,” he said. “You need to take care of her. Take her home, let us finish here, and then if you still want to be involved, come in tomorrow. There are no suspects yet; there is nothing else to do tonight.”
“I do want to go home,” Lynn said, still looking down. “But I want something first.”
Pauls eyes started searching the crowd, probably for Dr. Gross, but I said, “Not from those pain parasites.” So Paul suggested his father.
“He wanted to see you right away, but he didnt want to impose.” He looked down at Lynn, and added that the old man was the closest thing she had to a father. I thought for a moment, then nodded, and joined him in half dragging her to the aero. We made sure she was well strapped, then I lifted the aero away from the street, the scene, the crowd, the fried car, and what was left of my daughter and my best friend. My little Lynn, I called her. My little Lynette …
I stabbed at the preset destination screen after I started shaking with sobs, and the aero bore us up the hill toward the castle, the scan beeping at the others nearby. Lynn actually put her left hand on my shoulder at one point, but she didnt keep it there long.
Copyright © 2012 by David Swavely