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Drool spilled out across my desk, and I opened my eyes just in time to hear Mr. Meade slam down a textbook. Id only been at this high school a month, but Id quickly learned that was his favorite way of waking me up from my naps during his history lecture. I always tried to stay awake, but his monotone voice lulled me into sleeping submission every time.
“Miss Everly?” Mr. Meade snapped. “Miss Everly?”
“Hmm?” I murmured.
I lifted my head and discreetly wiped away the drool. I glanced around to see if anyone had noticed. Most of the class seemed oblivious, except for Finn Holmes. Hed been here a week, so he was the only kid in school newer than me. Whenever I looked at him, he always seemed to be staring at me in a completely unabashed way, as if it were perfectly normal to gawk at me.
There was something oddly still and quiet about him, and I had yet to hear him speak, even though he was in four of my classes. He wore his hair smoothed back, and his eyes were a matching shade of black. His looks were rather striking, but he weirded me out too much for me to find him attractive.
“Sorry to disturb your sleep.” Mr. Meade cleared his throat so I would look up at him.
“Its okay,” I said.
“Miss Everly, why dont you go down to the principals office?” Mr. Meade suggested, and I groaned. “Since you seem to be making a habit of sleeping in my class, maybe he can come up with some ideas to help you stay awake.”
“I am awake,” I insisted.
“Miss Everly—now.” Mr. Meade pointed to the door, as if I had forgotten how to leave and needed reminding.
I fixed my gaze on him, and despite how stern his gray eyes looked, I could tell hed cave easily. Over and over in my head I kept repeating, I do not need to go the principals office. You dont want to send me down there. Let me stay in class. Within seconds his face went lax and his eyes took on a glassy quality.
“You can stay in class and finish the lecture,” Mr. Meade said groggily. He shook his head, clearing his eyes. “But next time youre going straight to the office, Miss Everly.” He looked confused for a moment, and then launched right back into his history lecture.
I wasnt sure what it was that I had just done exactly—I tried not to think about it enough to name it. About a year ago, Id discovered that if I thought about something and looked at somebody hard enough, I could get that person to do what I wanted.
As awesome as that sounded, I avoided doing it as much as possible. Partially because I felt like I was crazy for really believing I could do it, even though it worked every time. But mostly because I didnt like it. It made me feel dirty and manipulative.
Mr. Meade went on talking, and I followed along studiously, my guilt making me try harder. I hadnt wanted to do that to him, but I couldnt go to the principals office. I had just been expelled from my last school, forcing my brother and aunt to uproot their lives again so we could move closer to my new school.
I had honestly tried at the last school, but the Deans daughter had been intent on making my life miserable. Id tolerated her taunts and ridicules as best I could until one day she cornered me in the bathroom, calling me every dirty name in the book. Finally, Id had enough, and I punched her.
The Dean decided to skip their one-strike rule and immediately expelled me. I know in large part it was because Id resorted to physical violence against his child, but Im not sure that was it entirely. Where other students were shown leniency, for some reason I never seemed to be.
When class finally ended, I shoved my books in my book bag and left quickly. I didnt like hanging around after I did the mind-control trick. Mr. Meade could change his mind and send me to the office, so I hurried down to my locker.
Bright-colored flyers decorated battered lockers, telling everyone to join the debate team, try out for the school play, and not to miss the fall semiformal this Friday. I wondered what a “semiformal” consisted of at a public school, not that Id bothered to ask anyone.
I got to my locker and started switching out my books. Without even looking, I knew Finn was behind me. I glanced over my shoulder and saw him getting a drink from the fountain. Almost as soon as I looked at him, he lifted his head and gazed at me. Like he could sense me too.
The guy was just looking at me, nothing more, but it freaked me out somehow. Id put up with his stares for a week, trying to avoid confrontation, but I couldnt take it anymore. He was the one acting inappropriately, not me. I couldnt get in trouble for just talking to him, right?
“Hey,” I said to him, slamming my locker shut. I readjusted the straps on my book bag and walked across the hall to where he stood. “Why are you staring at me?”
“Because youre standing in front of me,” Finn replied simply. He looked at me, his eyes framed by dark lashes, without any hint of embarrassment or even denial. It was definitely unnerving.
“Youre always staring at me,” I persisted. “Its weird. Youre weird.”
“I wasnt trying to fit in.”
“Why do you look at me all the time?” I knew Id simply rephrased my original question, but he still hadnt given me a decent answer.
“Does it bother you?”
“Answer the question.” I stood up straighter, trying to make my presence more imposing so he wouldnt realize how much he rattled me.
“Everyone always looks at you,” Finn said coolly. “Youre very attractive.”
That sounded like a compliment, but his voice was emotionless when he said it. I couldnt tell if he was making fun of a vanity I didnt even have, or if he was simply stating facts. Was he flattering me or mocking me? Or maybe something else entirely?
“Nobody stares at me as much as you do,” I said as evenly as I could.
“If it bothers you, Ill try and stop,” Finn offered.
That was tricky. In order to ask him to stop, I had to admit that hed gotten to me, and I didnt want to admit that anything got to me. If I lied and said it was fine, then he would just keep on doing it.
“I didnt ask you to stop. I asked you why,” I amended.
“I told you why.”
“No, you didnt.” I shook my head. “You just said that everyone looks at me. You never explained why you looked at me.”
Almost imperceptibly the corner of his mouth moved up, revealing the hint of a smirk. It wasnt just that I amused him; I sensed he was pleased with me. Like he had challenged me somehow and I had passed.
My stomach did a stupid flip thing I had never felt before, and I swallowed hard, hoping to fight it back.
“I look at you because I cant look away,” Finn answered finally.
I was struck completely mute, trying to think of some kind of clever response, but my mind refused to work. Realizing that my jaw had gone slack and I probably looked like an awestruck schoolgirl, I hurried to collect myself.
“Thats kind of creepy,” I said at last, but my words came out weak instead of accusatory.
“Ill work on being less creepy, then,” Finn promised.
I had called him out on being creepy, and it didnt faze him at all. He didnt stammer an apology or flush with shame. He just kept looking at me evenly. Most likely he was a damn sociopath, and for whatever reason, I found that endearing.
I couldnt come up with a witty retort, but the bell rang, saving me from the rest of that awkward conversation. Finn just nodded, thus ending our exchange, and turned down the hall to go to his next class. Thankfully, it was one of the few he didnt have with me.
True to his word, Finn wasnt creepy the rest of the day. Every time I saw him, he was doing something inoffensive that didnt involve looking at me. I still got that feeling that he watched me when I had my back to him, but it wasnt anything I could prove.
When the final bell rang at three oclock, I tried to be the first one out. My older brother, Matt, picked me up from school, at least until he found a job, and I didnt want to keep him waiting. Besides that, I didnt want to deal with any more contact with Finn Holmes.
I quickly made my way to the parking lot at the edge of the school lawn. Scanning for Matts Prius, I absently started to chew my thumbnail. I had this weird feeling, almost like a shiver running down my back. I turned around, half expecting to see Finn staring at me, but there was nothing.
I tried to shake it off, but my heart raced faster. This felt like something more sinister than a boy from school. I was still staring off, trying to decide what had me freaked out, when a loud honk startled me, making me jump. Matt sat a few cars down, looking at me over the top of his sunglasses.
“Sorry.” I opened the car door and hopped in, where he looked me over for a moment. “What?”
“You looked nervous. Did something happen?” Matt asked, and I sighed. He took his whole big brother thing way too seriously.
“No, nothing happened. School sucks,” I said, brushing him off. “Lets go home.”
“Seat belt,” Matt commanded, and I did as I was told.
Matt had always been quiet and reserved, thinking everything over carefully before making a decision. He was a stark contrast to me in every way, except that we were both relatively short. I was small, with a decidedly pretty, feminine face. My brown hair was an untamed mess of curls that I kept up in loose buns.
He kept his sandy blond hair trim and neat, and his eyes were the same shade of blue as our mothers. Matt wasnt overtly muscular, but he was sturdy and athletic from working out a lot. He had a sense of duty, like he had to make sure he was strong enough to defend us against anything.
“How is school going?” Matt asked.
“Great. Fantastic. Amazing.”
“Are you even going to graduate this year?” Matt had long since stopped judging my school record. A large part of him didnt even care if I graduated from high school.
“Who knows?” I shrugged.
Everywhere I went, kids never seemed to like me. Even before I said or did anything. I felt like I had something wrong with me and everyone knew it. I tried getting along with the other kids, but Id only take getting pushed for so long before I pushed back. Principals and deans were quick to expel me, probably sensing the same things the kids did.
I just didnt belong.
“Just to warn you, Maggies taking it seriously,” Matt said. “Shes set on you graduating this year, from this school.”
“Delightful.” I sighed. Matt couldnt care less about my schooling, but my aunt Maggie was a different story. And since she was my legal guardian, her opinion mattered more. “Whats her plan?”
“Maggies thinking bedtimes,” Matt informed me with a smirk. As if sending me to bed early would somehow prevent me from getting in a fight.
“Im almost eighteen!” I groaned. “What is she thinking?”
“Youve got four more months until youre eighteen,” Matt corrected me sharply, and his hand tightened on the steering wheel. He suffered from serious delusions that I was going to run away as soon as I turned eighteen, and nothing I could say would convince him otherwise.
“Yeah, whatever.” I waved it off. “Did you tell her shes insane?”
“I figured shed hear it enough from you.” Matt grinned at me.
“So did you find a job?” I asked tentatively, and he shook his head.
Hed just finished an internship over the summer, working with a great architecture firm. Hed said it didnt bother him, moving to a town without much call for a promising young architect, but I couldnt help feeling guilty about it.
“This is a pretty town,” I said, looking out the window.
We approached our new house, buried on an average suburban street among a slew of maples and elms. It actually seemed like a boring small town, but Id promised Id make the best of it. I really wanted to. I didnt think I could handle disappointing Matt anymore.
“So youre really gonna try here?” Matt asked, looking over at me. We had pulled up in the driveway next to the butter-colored Victorian that Maggie had bought last month.
“I already am,” I insisted with a smile. “Ive been talking to this Finn kid.” Sure, Id talked to him only once, and I wouldnt even remotely count him as a friend, but I had to tell Matt something.
“Look at you. Making your very first friend.” Matt shut off the cars engine and looked at me with veiled amusement.
“Yeah, well, how many friends do you have?” I countered. He just shook his head and got out of the car, and I quickly followed him. “Thats what I thought.”
“Ive had friends before. Gone to parties. Kissed a girl. The whole nine yards,” Matt said as he went through the side door into the house.
“So you say.” I kicked off my shoes as soon as we walked into the kitchen, which was still in various stages of unpacking. As many times as wed moved, everyone had gotten tired of the whole process, so we tended to live out of boxes. “Ive only seen one of these alleged girls.”
“Yeah, cause when I brought her home, you set her dress on fire! While she was wearing it!” Matt pulled off his sunglasses and looked at me severely.
“Oh, come on. That was an accident and you know it.”
“So you say.” Matt opened the fridge.
“Anything good in there?” I asked and hopped onto the kitchen island. “Im famished.”
“Probably nothing youd like.” Matt started sifting through the contents of the fridge, but he was right.
I was a notoriously picky eater. While I had never purposely sought out the life of a vegan, I seemed to hate most things that had either meat in them or man-made synthetics. It was odd and incredibly irritating for the people who tried to feed me.
Maggie appeared in the doorway to the kitchen, flecks of paint stuck in her blond curls. Layers of multicolored paint covered her ratty overalls, proof of all the rooms she had redecorated over the years. She had her hands on her hips, so Matt shut the fridge door to give her his full attention.
“I thought I told you to tell me when you got home,” Maggie said.
“Were home?” Matt offered.
“I can see that.” Maggie rolled her eyes, and then turned her attention to me. “How was school?”
“Good,” I said. “Im trying harder.”
“Weve heard that before.” Maggie gave me a weary look.
I hated it when she gave me that look. I hated knowing that I made her feel that way, that I had disappointed her that much. She did so much for me, and the only thing she asked of me was that I at least try at school. I had to make it work this time.
“Well, yeah … but…” I looked to Matt for help. “I mean, I actually promised Matt this time. And Im making a friend.”
“Shes talking to some guy named Finn,” Matt said corroborating my story.
“Like a guy guy?” Maggie smiled too broadly for my liking.
The idea of Finn being a romantic prospect hadnt crossed Matts mind before, and he suddenly tensed up, looking at me with a new scrutiny. Fortunately for him, that idea hadnt crossed my mind either.
“No, nothing like that.” I shook my head. “Hes just a guy, I guess. I dont know. He seems nice enough.”
“Nice?” Maggie gushed. “Thats a start! And much better than that anarchist with the tattoo on his face.”
“We werent friends,” I corrected her. “I just stole his motorcycle. While he happened to be on it.”
Nobody had ever really believed that story, but it was true, and it was how I figured out that I could get people to do things just by thinking it. I had been thinking that I really wanted his bike, and then I was looking at him and he was listening to me, even though I hadnt said anything. Then I was driving his motorcycle.
“So this really is gonna be a new start for us?” Maggie couldnt hold back her excitement any longer. Her blue eyes started to well with happy tears. “Wendy, this is just so wonderful! We can really make a home here!”
I wasnt nearly as excited about it as she was, though I couldnt help but hope she was right. It would be nice to feel like I was home somewhere.
Copyright © 2011 by Amanda Hocking