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Through to You andlt;link rel="stylesheet" type="text/css" href="../styles/9781442434653.css"andgt; andlt;h2 andgt;andlt;a id="ch01"andgt;andlt;/aandgt;andlt;a id="page_3"andgt;andlt;/aandgt;Harperandlt;/h2andgt; andlt;BRandgt;This is how it ends:andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;With me crying in a bathroom at the Crowne Plaza Hotel, cursing myself for being so stupid. I knew it was wrong, I knew it wasnand#8217;t going to end well, I knew I was putting myself in a situation where I was going to end up brokenhearted.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;I reach over and pull some toilet paper out of the dispenser and use it to blow my nose. My feet are killing me because of the stupid high heels Iand#8217;m wearing. I want to sit down, but thereand#8217;s nowhere to sit. Iand#8217;m in a bathroom stall, for Godand#8217;s sake. The only place to sit down is on the actual toilet, and it doesnand#8217;t have a cover. Why donand#8217;t the toilets in hotel bathrooms have covers? Iand#8217;m sure Iand#8217;m not the first person to end up in here crying her eyes out and looking for some privacy. Arenand#8217;t there andlt;a id="page_4"andgt;andlt;/aandgt;always scandalous things happening in hotels, things that would cause one to end up crying in the bathroom?andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;Okay, I tell myself, just calm down. Itand#8217;s not as bad as you think.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;The problem, of course, is that it really is as bad as I think. Iand#8217;ve never had my heart broken before, and I wasnand#8217;t expecting it to feel like this. I wasnand#8217;t expecting to feel like I want to die. I wasnand#8217;t expecting to be crying so hard my shoulders shake and I canand#8217;t breathe.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;The door to the bathroom opens, and I hear footsteps crossing the floor. A group of girls laughing as they reapply their lipstick. Theyand#8217;re happy and excited.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;Like I should be.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;But Iand#8217;m not.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;Instead, here I am.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;Crying in a bathroom stall.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;This is how it ends.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;And I have no one to blame but myself.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;I saw it coming.andlt;BRandgt; andlt;BRandgt;I just couldnand#8217;t stop it.